Today, as I went shopping, I had the feeling that Jay was now ‘in our lives’ – more than before.
Like he was more real. Already living with us in a sense.
There’s a qualitative difference between this feeling of him being ‘in our lives’ now as compared to yesterday and the weeks and months since we knew he was coming.
I can’t describe it, but it is there. Something happened. Like we crossed more than just the half-way threshold.
I’ve heard from some spiritual quarter or another, way back, that the soul enters the fetus more permanently when the baby is about 3-4 months in the womb. Until then it ‘comes and goes’.
It’s a long time ago, since I read that. I don’t even remember where.
An saying that can probably never be proven, even if we live beyond this life.
It could also ‘just be psychological’. Very much so.
We’re halfway. We’re getting more and more used to the thought of having a son.
But still … there was a shift of some fundamental sort today.
And it was a good one.
It doesn’t need further explanation of its foundations.