12 hour work-day and then writing my story. One day in my life that should be a guiding star.… Read more
Had a rather trying day with Difficult-Again-Photographer-Client, CN, and wondered as I went home with the metropolitan train how to kill.
The problems, not CN. Although the two are related.
Basically he overloads me with tasks which I can’t possibly keep up with in the 14 hours a week he has hired me.… Read more
Was very tempted to download a game tonight, perhaps one of my old strategy games. Exhausted after meetings and clients but … no.
If I want to change my life this is the last chance.
Every scrap of free time can’t be polluted with noise from the Internet of ‘sweets’ for my brain, like a game.… Read more
These past days I’ve been feeling stressed – too stressed, thoughts racing, even my movements too rapid. Like a film set to go at 1.25 instead of 1.00 speed. And that is 0.25 points too much.
This Will Not Stand.
The quality of my life is measured by how I experience it and I have to chose to experience it differently now.… Read more
After a long day at Somewhat-But-Not-Quite-Too-Much-Major-Client, I wondered if I shouldn’t just make an effort to find more … clients? Currently, I have 4-5 depending on how you count, and the former makes up about 80 per cent of the income from all of them, taken together. Not a good show.… Read more
Went to the family, down south, with Char and her grandma. It was mum-in-law’s birthday and a good excuse to go, although the trip is long and I get to drive every time.
Thought about life and death, and clients, and dreams, and Jay, and whether or not life would bring Good – or more of it – in the unknown future.… Read more
1) A friend knows. Knows me. Knows changes. Knows time. And cares. And I know that he knows and cares.
2) Friends grow old in the right way. For the right purpose. Like something you drink that warms you for a long time after. That’s worth ageing.
3) There are exceptions, but the rule is probably that it is dangerous to confuse colleagues and friends.… Read more
A strange day, when work/meetings with two clients got cancelled for various reasons and I just kind of drifted, feeling restless.
But I had a good time to walk into a City-a-little-closer-to-spring and sit down at a central square with a sandwich and think of things.
I decided that despite the sudden ‘free hours’ there was nothing I had to do.… Read more
Where does one draw the line for how much or how little to deliver to a customer in terms of quality?
There’s good customer service, of course. It is that which makes you deliver that something extra to gain or retain a customer.
Then there’s also the act of doing yourself a disfavor by selling out – delivering too much and gaining too little in return.… Read more
Tuesday I awoke and felt everything ‘collapsing in on me’ – the little office corner in the house was still a mess.
Also, I had accounting to do, a course coming up in the evening (where I teach), work tomorrow … and through all of that an incessant yearning to just write.… Read more
Dear Job Market,
I’m sorry but I have to let you go.
In the future this company will only make money by delivering services to several clients and creating products, in order to keep open a selection of active and passive income streams.
This is, in other words, organizational restructuring which, unfortunately, no longer leaves room for your position, which so far has been unique – as you were our only employee for years.… Read more
Today I went to see St Joan (Bernard Shaw’s play) which quickened me a bit. Which was good, because I felt grey inside, as if mist had taken up residence in my heart – or swirled dangerously close.
I felt cut off from something vital, perhaps from supportive social circles for some of my higher goals of life, such as this blog and other things.… Read more
Today we went to the cinema with Char’s grandmum (mother’s side) and saw a film that I had really wanted to see for a long time: The King’s Choice, about King Haakon VII and his family during the German invasion of Norway in April 1940.
It is basically a movie about a man who is struggling to figure out what is his true duty when the world falls apart. … Read more