193. I’m Amazed At How Difficult It Is

What can redeem all of this is if I can put that insight and sense of humility to good use, for myself or others, in the future, and thus leave something of deep value behind.

What will destroy everything that is left is if I allow this sense of being humbled to overwhelm me in despair, shame, self-recrimination, thrown back and forth between these emotions like a ping-pong ball mind.

So I have to choose.