Today we checked out a possible nursery for Jay and were both quite taken aback.
It was just … too big. 72 children for six rooms, and the building not particularly inviting.
I know this is reality for many here, and probably worse in less rich parts of the world – if they even have such things as nurseries.… Read more
There must be a reason why we are living in these different dimensions, if it is true that it is so.
The best one I’ve heard so far is that we can’t experience ourselves as boundless and limitless and light and so on, our true natures if you will, if we don’t temporarily impose some limits on ourselves.… Read more
Was told today that the father of my best friend, MRN, has cancer.
MRN did not tell it to me yet, but I know he will, because we will talk sooner rather than later. (Tomorrow is his birthday.)
I thought a lot about how to handle that and how to support MRN the best.… Read more
A long train-ride home gives you time to think about the essentials of life.
I had deliberately not planned work or even reading, although I did a little of the latter. But Jay behaved nicely and the other passengers behaved nicely, too, and the train was on time.
Still, it felt good to use large stretches of time, aside from talking with Char and holding Jay, to just look out the window and take stock.… Read more
Jay was kind of impossible all day and we didn’t really find out why. We were still at my parents which was a a down in a sense (I’m writing this Friday, panting to catch up). I guess I wanted the time there to be more perfect and baby-coo-coo.
Which is silly, of course.… Read more
All right, I’m done with trying to create ‘passive income’. At least for now.
I tried some short time ago – again – creating the first of a series of products, this time for my company’s webshop. It seemed like a good product, a good idea, and then … it fizzled and I didn’t feel good about it and pulled it.… Read more
My mum’s birthday (70th) and a small, intimate gathering of family and, of course, now that gathering includes Mr. Surprise himself – Jay.
I think it took some time for my mum to get over that we had not revealed our efforts for 6 years to have children; she doesn’t like to be kept out.… Read more
I didn’t do a month of blogging about my subject for my next live-talk about fascinating historical persons – namely ‘the real Robinson Crusoe’ a.k.a. Scottish 18th century sailor, Alex Selkirk.
And now I’m not going to do it. And least not in a streak.
Too many disruptions recently has made me rethink this one, but I am going to use one of the major disruptions positively, namely the loss of Big Photographer Client, for whom I work two days a week plus all the loose change.… Read more
Tried to take at least half the day off and rejuvenate my heart by writing a novella. But I was too tired inside.
The heart needs to rest first, I guess. Then it can open up again and rejuvenate by sharing what is in it.… Read more
Mostly all-work day but for a new, bigger client who actually has a product with ideals – creative play-guides for children and their parents.
I guess Not-So-Big-Anymore Photographer Client had ideals, as well, on the surface – like getting some memorable photos of the world for the rest of the world to see.… Read more
Wrote to all the attendants at Jay’s baptism and thanked them individually for their presents and presence. It took all day, but they earned it.
Not many days and social gatherings you can say that about, so when one shows up, it’s important to appreciate just that – and show it.… Read more
After my recent stress-episode I wrote Big Photographer client about what limits I would impose on my email-time and pro bono work for him in the future. After which he promptly fired me.
After all the times I’ve had to swallow my pride to get that money and change myself, not the situation, because I felt it was necessary – and wait until I could afford to quit … he does it for me.… Read more
Spent some time with Char’s mum and grand mum and it was nice. I love my family. But I’m also reminded of our differences each time we are together. Like their inability to change their thinking in many situation, even the blindingly obvious.
Who else would ask Char 3 or 4 times if she wants alcohol, while she has said not because she is breast-feeding and actually doing so while being asked?… Read more
Alone one whole evening with Jay for the first time and it went rather badly. He wouldn’t take the bottle, or even a small glass of milk from Char. Not without screaming his lungs out.
I stopped after a while and just let him sleep in the carriage until Char came home.… Read more