254. Doing

So today started with an argument. I don’t recall much of the substance since perhaps there wasn’t any. But I was frustrated that I could not find a sock, some clothes for Jay and that the apartment still looked messy, while I had to find something else for Char before she went out and we could hardly find time to get some milk on bottle for Saturday when I am to look after Jay alone.… Read more

253. Diagnoses

An old friend, JN, visited today – all the way from Holland. During dinner, consisting of pizzas, in the bedroom/Jay’s room, he confided that he had tested himself for Asperger’s. The result was ‘positive’.

I had long felt that there was indeed some kind of ‘block’ in his social skills, which is one of the factors used to ‘measure’ Asperger’s.… Read more

249. Security

Another day with work, prep for baptism and more work – home-work with Jay. And I must say it again:

When you have children you automatically have more conflicts – the adults. Being 42 and 43 is no security against that.

However, if your relationship is old, too, and has grown old through trials then age makes you more secure in your ability to solve the conflicts that do arise.… Read more

248. What I Have To

Sleep poorly these days, feel there’s too much work and then of course preparing the baptism and keeping up with Jay every day. It’s not awfully bad but it’s not particularly good either.

Maybe I am affected by something not entirely of my own making, sometimes I do feel like a certain negative ‘energy’ latches on to me from people or places.… Read more