300. Realistic Narrative

As usual, every 100 posts, here are some reflections about where I have been for the last 100 days – and some about where I am going.

Due to the waves that have crashed in early-mid October so to speak (more on that on these post dates) this ‘look back’ is probably more going to be a ‘look forward’, because so much is still uncertain at the time of writing this post (mid October).… Read more

297. Dangers of Any Particular Life Story

It’s important to take a step back and look at the reasons why things turned out as they did. They are seldom simple, nor black and white. They seldom fit into the ‘personal quality lack’ or ‘inevitable fate’-explanations that we seem to be so attracted to.

While I did a project at university about attitudes towards foreigners (immigrants) I read a paper (one of a truckload) about human psychology.… Read more

296. Wonderings

I remember once a baby had been killed in car crash near my home. I went to the crossing where it had happened. I was drawn there. It felt so … unjust. That this child had been killed like that.

Some drunk assholes were speeding all through our city. Then they hit the car in front of them.… Read more

295. Maintaining Lifelines

Stress handling is NOT about trying to gain immunity from stress – that is silly and counterproductive.

It’s about as quickly as possible regaining balance and calm when problems bring you out of balance – make you angry, confused, overwhelmed, etc.

“Getting back into balance when you’ve been knocked about is as important as learning not to be knocked about.”

Your Lifelines are just that – a kind of first aid kit which is healthy and gives you a quick break and some energy.… Read more

291. The Most Dangerous Thing

The truth is that yes, there are annoying people and always will be, but once you get a good filter in place to avoid most of these then your greatest obstacle is probably … yourself.

Last night, I really felt – after having sent a question out to the universe about it – that the answer to where I could improve next wasn’t so much in trying to filter out other people, especially customers.… Read more

289. What Has To Happen

Just working throughout the day, and working with caffeine-withdrawal, too, so I’d like to shift the focus a bit.

I’d like to sound like I actually do something else than think about my own ego, work-life-balance and such.

I’d like to note a few thoughts on Jay that have been very powerful and have come again and again these recent months, as I’ve seen him grow from a newborn to a 4-month old baby:

There is so much potential in a newborn, so much promise, so much innocence.… Read more

288. Seeing Behind The Void

Had a really trying day, where I fixed some stuff for clients and tried to promote my live-talks and felt all round rotten and drained. In fact: on the verge of giving up and going home many times.

I didn’t. I forced myself to keep going, even though I made mistakes and was continually dissatisfied with my work – for example, the emails I sent out to promote the live-talk about Robinson.… Read more