Used half the day to go with and babysit Jay whilst Char had craniosacral therapy. Jay was on first and we think we can already see improvements with his head which has been a little bit flat and skewed on the right side since the summer.
Maybe it is just imagining things, but as parents you do what you got to do.… Read more
Stayed at home to help with the mess and house and laundry and everything that drive both Char and I crazy, because it’s like there is never time to kill it off in depth, even with some purchased help one day a week. No time, mostly due to Jay and my work and, well, the Usual.… Read more
I worked today, in bit and pieces of time again but that is not important. What is, is that I often wake up feeling afraid for my finances – what if I run out of credit again before I can earn enough on my webdesign business to cover my expenses?
Surprise.… Read more
Tried to work in the usual choppy time-blocks, but the library close by was haunted by another bunch of workers who made noise and with the pace I am bleeding credit, there is no way I can afford my own office yet.
No need to repeat that.
Nor that I went home to help with our ludicrous amounts of laundry, mid-afternoon.… Read more
Visited JMO because we need to borrow his house while our own apartment is renovated. Actually it is the apartment above us, but they need to shift the toilet and kitchen pipes on all floors, too. Quite a fucking bother with a baby in the house, but there you have it.… Read more
Laundry and other house-work and shifts on taking care of Jay, and it all made me think about whether or not a way to a ‘better life’ is together? I mean, with a business Char and I do together?
Yeah, yeah, our lives are relatively good, aren’t they? We’re not begging on the streets in Mogadishu.… Read more
Did a lot of client work today for people who have already paid me, but which is fine, since they might come back and pay me to do more on their websites. It is, though, not the currency of the soul and these days I feel I really need to get back to … some sense of my soul that is deeper than just family, work and worrying (about other family).… Read more
Char and Jay left to go out for a medical appointment and then down south to Char’s mum to stay, while I finish the borrowed house’s cleaning and some workers for the nth day renovate in our apartment block.
I had to drive back and forth to The Big City with all the stuff we had brought out to the borrowed house in the Provincial City over almost 2 months, and was very tired when I finally got home.… Read more
Spent the last day in the borrowed house cleaning and shopping and doing family-stuff. I had planned some work but I had to write the clients and tell them I postponed things for various opaque reasons, because as the morning progressed I realized it would not be a good day if I did not make a choice.… Read more
Went back to our apartment in the City to work because for once I had many webshop clients on the same day, but although it was a relief to get relative peace (minus the renovation of the next floor apartment), I still felt a little bad about leaving Char with Jay.… Read more
I believe that it is not really possible anymore, as I believed when I was younger, to really change the world in my lifetime only contribute to some level of flow of positive change. Not very good way of putting it, but change is so slow and incremental if you want to contribute to something global and not just your immediate family or friends’ lives, or your own personal development.… Read more
Some thoughts about where I have been and where I am going …
Art & Creativity & Stories
I needed time to rediscover myself here, and ‘clean’ my motivations so I only do what my heart is really in. I feel now that I may want to at least draw something just for myself, and perhaps this blog, but mostly to use drawing as a meditative tool of enjoyment so to speak.… Read more
A quieter day where I tried not to work, as promised to Char, and then kept looking for opportunities to do something anyway. Originally I reckoned that I would blog, but I ended up redoing my landing page at my business website in the 1.5 hours or thereabouts I did get of spare time throughout the day.… Read more
My dad called me to update me on my mother’s chemo and that they had been to a meeting with the doctors and still were undecided. I was helping Char feed Jay and pondering how to fit new clients in today’s family-schedule, so it kind of caught me off guard and I felt down afterwards.… Read more