She was the first “nice” girl he had ever known. In various unrevealed capacities he had come in contact with such people but always with indiscernible barbed wire between. He found her excitingly desirable. He went to her house, at first with other officers from Camp Taylor, then alone. It amazed him—he had never been in such a beautiful house before.… Read more
They loved each other, not driven by necessity, by the “blaze of passion” often falsely ascribed to love. They loved each other because everything around them willed it, the trees and the clouds and the sky over their heads and the earth under their feet.… Read more
But I am constant as the Northern Star,
Of whose true-fix’d and resting quality
There is no fellow in the firmament.
– Shakespeare, Julius Caesar… Read more
One great relief now I’m at 500: I don’t have to do anything special.
Lost that decision over a month ago, to do The Blog in any particular way:
– hook in intro/just start,
– practically relevant for daily life/philosophical reflections about anything and everything
– etc. etc.
And of course milestones and reviews and chronology and deep interlinking and lots and lots of repetition and excuses for never really being able to do It All.… Read more
I thought for a long time it would help me finish creative projects if I narrowed them down to just one, due to work and family time constraints.
Turns out I get more motivated by having about 3 projects that I can shift between (but not many more), like I am recording an album instead of just having to choose a single song.… Read more
With regard to being self-employed I’ve discovered one thing: It is much harder to get started than get going once you are in.
Because once you get those first few people to pay you money for a job well done, your confidence automatically rises. And suddenly options don’t seem so limited anymore.… Read more
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Oh, I am heartily tired of hearing about what Lee is going to do. Some of you always seem to think he is suddenly going to turn a double somersault, and land in our rear and on both of our flanks at the same time. Go back to your command, and try to think what we are going to do ourselves, instead of what Lee is going to do.
I wanted so badly to watch television this weekend while I did the dishes. Anything to get buzz in my head and relax while I had some ‘free’ time, not taking care of Jay.
But I did not.
I promised myself that, aside from emergencies and The Blog, home-time is without Internet.… Read more
About dreams. It is usually taken for granted that you dream of something that has made a particularly strong impression on you during the day, but it seems to me it’s just the contrary. Often it’s something you paid no attention to at the time — a vague thought that you didn’t bother to think out to the end, words spoken without feeling and which passed unnoticed — these are the things that return at night, clothed in flesh and blood, and they become the subjects of dreams, as if to make up for having been ignored during waking hours.… Read more
I wrote the start of chapter 6 a few days ago. It feels a bit like …
She permitted her cold gaze to let go of Woland and Koroviev ever so briefly and wander to that of the four enormous arched windows in the hall, which was right behind the two agents who had come to report.… Read more
We sleep to time’s hurdy-gurdy; we wake, if ever we wake, to the silence of God. And then, when we wake to the deep shores of time uncreated, then when the dazzling dark breaks over the far slopes of time, then it’s time to toss things, like our reason, and our will; then it’s time to break our necks for home.… Read more
Forget your personal tragedy. We are all bitched from the start and you especially have to be hurt like hell before you can write seriously. But when you get the damned hurt, use it – don’t cheat with it.
– Hemingway… Read more
If I look back 21 years to the time I really started making choices that formed my adult life (at 23 in 1997) I find myself reflecting that my life has proceeded in certain phases since then.
And that these phases can explain much of what went wrong, and some of what went right.… Read more
As I grow older and continually try to fix my life to become more happier overall, it looks to me more and more like the key to winning this ‘game’ is to focus only on one single day at a time.
Sure, you should have goals and all but my point is this:
If you primarily focus on coming out of each day with the best experience, all things accounted for, you allow yourself to become happier overall – over the course of an entire life.… Read more