Spent the last day in the borrowed house cleaning and shopping and doing family-stuff. I had planned some work but I had to write the clients and tell them I postponed things for various opaque reasons, because as the morning progressed I realized it would not be a good day if I did not make a choice.
So the choice was family and cleaning, because I do not want to stress tomorrow when we have to hand back the keys.
It doesn’t bother me, as long as I have faith that what I’m building business-wise will work, I can take time out for this and other practicalities that need to be done. Okay, I had to take a little time to feel that way, but in truth – I do.
I wonder if the goal for the rest of my life should not be to set larger and larger goals – about accomplishments and achievements? I mean, forget more power and influence or ratings or readers or fans or whatnot. Focus more on cultivating the feeling that there is always an inner surplus of faith and calm and peace, but also of a sense of beauty and excitement – about things big and small.
It is hard to put into words, but perhaps it is a bit like the feeling you have when you have been at the beach all day long with family on a vacation and everything has gone well. You are calm and relaxed but you also have other sights and experiences you want to see. However, what is important it that your base on the beach, and in the holiday house perhaps – they are there. That sense of a base of calm and rejuvenation, from which you can venture out. I really can’t put it better than that right now.
It doesn’t negate large external goals, like growing my company to have employees – from 10 to 1000, or such. But perhaps that focus on ‘cultivating the beach’ is what underlies it all. If I feel I am moved away from that, while building my company then I am building in the wrong way, at the wrong time or I should not build at all.