Okay, so I have a couple of hours while Char and Jay is away and my mind feels bombed, but I have to write something – I’m already a week behind on posts. (This is written on January 20.)
The Blog is not supposed to be a chore, but being on de facto paternity leave hasn’t as noted in previous posts given me more net time to blog or be creative, because those activities were usually hours and minutes I cannibalized from the chunks of time I could out of the apartment to work on my webdesign business.
One day I might go to the library for 4 hours to work for a client, agree to this chunk of time with Char and then I’d try to finish up in 3 or 3½ so I had some time left to blog.
Because in the evenings after Jay and Char have gone to bed, I am usually without any energy what-so-ever so I rarely get anything done at those times, except maybe read a few comics and drink a whiskey, which is about 20 minutes and then to bed.
Well, now the hours are here – 2½ to be exact. And I mostly just want to zone out. Which I will. So what to do with the space instead – the space that keeps growing? How to provide value? And still get time to rest?
How about revisiting some of my favorite quotes? I have done this in times of stress, like when my mother had cancer this winter.
I realize it is not exactly ‘meat’ of The Blog, but I did have a quotes page for awhile, which I removed again, because it did not seem like I would be using it.
Well, I will, but in my posts. And maybe it makes good sense.
I mean, The Blog is supposed to uplift people who read it – make them feel empowered in someway to deal with whatever there is to deal with in life.
And although I hate pure quote-blogs, which are often very, very ‘fluffy’, there are many more powerful quotes that I know and use myself, remind myself of. There is a lot of wisdom out there, that isn’t mine.
In fact, most wisdom in the world is not mine. But I know some of it and try to use it and take it to heart. So why not share that, too?
Yeah, why not?
The point of The Blog is that you also use it intuitively – maybe you hit up a random post and try to select some post while thinking of a particular problem.
Maybe you hit a random tag. And that may lead you to posts that do something for you right there and then.
And that does not need to be posts with sharing by me. It could be echoes of shared experiences from … anyone.
I just need to make sure I always share value and never do anything else, because I don’t feel for blogging or generally is not able to prioritize it. In that case, I should stop.
But that time is not yet.
I beg you, to have patience with everything unresolved in your heart and to try to love the questions themselves as if they were locked rooms or books written in a very foreign language. Don’t search for the answers, which could not be given to you now, because you would not be able to live them. And the point is to live everything. Live the questions now. Perhaps then, someday far in the future, you will gradually, without even noticing it, live your way into the answer.
―Rainer Maria Rilke