I found this old piece that I wrote last year after hearing about another old music idol of mine dying. I felt like taking it up again, for no particular reason. Maybe except one: The feeling I get from re-reading it reminds me that I have to do better.
I want that feeling more.… Read more
Time to be philosophical – not in the least because the day has been anything but, with breadwinner-work and baby-work.
Okay, here goes:
Happiness and peace taken together equals a sense of … beauty.
This is first and foremost and inner experience, or an inner journey if you will, since there is nothing fixed about it.… Read more
was kind of like what Char and I were doing just now.
I said something about how tired we both were of looking after Jay and she disagreed, even though she was dead-tired. I know why, but I was tempted to argue about it anyway.
I stopped and just closed the door.… Read more
with baby, visits, house-stuff and too little time for making money or just making some time for oneself.
And yet, when the house was quiet, I decided to take out the drawing pad. I had almost given up on my ‘I’m Not Scared-project’.
But now I was drawing for the first time in months.… Read more
Today I took a break between clients and went to the comic shop I’ve frequented since I was 12.
Don’t go there much for comics anymore, just good chats with one of the old employees. A friendly version of Comic Book Guy from Simpsons, oh yes.
We talked about my latest live-talk, upcoming and planned, about another historical character that fascinates me:
Alexander Selkirk – the real Robinson Crusoe.… Read more
So another few days went buy working for Annoying Big Client.
And yes, I’m still sworn to look for alternative clients, to diversify, expand. All that, yes.
But while I am dependent on him for 75 percent of my monthly income I can do something else that makes it worthwhile enduring doing work for this man.… Read more
I have thought a lot about what drives me. Ask me and I will say ‘never fame or money’ – never to a certain ‘position’ in politics, business or culture. None of that.
But if I really see what’s inside myself I am not so sure.
I am sure, though, when I really, really feel what I want … that I don’t want those drives.… Read more
Writing this Saturday is interesting, because Monday could be crap. As usual. With Big Photographer Client and all his Mess.
However, after feeling like crap Saturday I’ve made a few good decisions. Here they are:
Replacing the 1500 USD per month I earn from Big Photographer Client is of paramount importance.… Read more
.. which I realized yesterday as I was sitting on that cafe and not really living the ‘laptop lifestyle’:
I have to strike a balance.
Giving entirely up on my strong drive to earn money in better and more enjoyable ways, won’t work.
But I need not to obsess too much about it and let that mission distract me from appreciating everything else in life.… Read more
So I’m sitting at this local cafe, living ‘the laptop lifestyle’, sipping latte and blogging about what’s on my mind.
Except that I’m doing it to escape our two-roomer and a baby and get an overview of what’s in my mind. Or rather: Check a growing feeling of despair this morning.… Read more