On one of those days when I can’t concentrate in the time I have before work and therefore have to throw in the towel … and do all sorts of small house-work-things to get something done …
And get a little order in my head, like previously written.
Well, I thought about Hammer and Magic.… Read more
Day is iffy, and this written with two days’ delay because of that iffy-ness – and many other things.
But suffice to say: There is this scenario, just like many other mornings, where I have some time before going to temp work, but … my mind feels overstretched.
So: Too drained to really concentrate.… Read more
So Char has had two really good job interviews with this health NGO she is to raise funds for, and now we are waiting for their reply.
Which “likely” will come Wednesday. (Which is the day I am writing this post.)
And all sorts of thoughts pop up, of course. Especially after a really hard week that didn’t leave much energy for much else.… Read more
So what can be done to get more ‘space’ inside – more calm to work, setting aside the problems I talked about last post (as far as possible)?
Pertinent question after a hurricane-like weak with some really problematic arguments between Char and I, Jay being sick and not in daycare, people calling with all sorts of things …
Again, I am not sure.… Read more
It seems to be a perpetual challenge to find a good work space, when you can’t afford to rent an office or even a co-worker space (which doesn’t work for me anyway).
In our 2-room apartment the work desk is in a corner of a room of about 20 sq meters – also used for eating, playing, watching telly, books and a couch.… Read more
… which are important to me right now, for reasons that should be either obvious or explained previously.
As well as why I think they do good.
“I get more and more time and energy to realize the ideal life for me”
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Days are pretty uncertain right now as regards anything money, but I have been offered a low-paid service job which will prop things up over summer. And allow me to meaningfully contribute to the household in a period where there will be even less business than in spring.
That’s not the point, though.… Read more
Focus areas on a day where I mostly take care of Jay and the house …
Who do I really feel I am or should be?
How do I connect with more like-minded friends? Who are they? Where are they?
Are my major goals (projects) the best I can have for making an impact in this life?… Read more
Fear does not create what I want.
Regret does not create what I want.
Backtalk does not create what I want.
Endless self-analysis does not create what I want.
Anger does not create what I want.
Shame does not create what I want.
Only creating what I want creates what I want.… Read more
Days are difficult, all centered on trying to earn money and not earning. Then taking care of Jay.
Not much time for anything else, like art or myself or us.
Or friends. Or just … being.
Except when I will it.… Read more