489. Better Addictions

The reason bad habits, I’ve found, tend to be more seductive than other activities is not because they feel intrinsically better and we just don’t want to admit it.

A habit is just as much a product of habit … repeated actions that stimulate centers in the physical brain that gives instead feelings of reward and therefore become more, well, powerful the more they are stimulated.… Read more

488. Cease

After much too much consideration, I think I feel more strongly than ever now that I should just give up … this struggle to ever make money full time from any creative endeavor.

You know parts and bits if you’ve read. Why I am thinking again about this.

But it really feels like it gives me what I want right now to just do my best at making business full time as a webdesigner and then taking every possible moment of free time that I need this energy to do some of my creative projects.… Read more

487. Time To Go Home

When we pulled out into the winter night and the real snow, our snow, began to stretch out beside us and twinkle against the windows, and the dim lights of small Wisconsin stations moved by, a sharp wild brace came suddenly into the air. We drew in deep breaths of it as we walked back from dinner through the cold vestibules, unutterably aware of our identity with this country for one strange hour before we melted indistinguishably into it again.Read more

486. Not Installed By The Machine

A question (in a forum):

“Every day I have an idea for a movie, sketch or TV show (usually involving people I know) and it makes me wish I had a machine that could translate my scenarios and ideas into a visual medium that others could watch.

Does anyone else ever wish they had a machine that could put their ideas into reality (movies, TV shows etc)?”

My reply:

I don’t think any machine can substitute storytelling, styling or layout experience (yet).… Read more

485. Morning Joys

No, not that. But writing again – in a few hours I have of my own.


Chapter 5.3

Nikolai did not like what he saw, as he got through all the locks and then opened one part of the mansion door.

At least she is not that dirty beggar … but she is so pale, so obviously she is ill.Read more

481. First Time In A Long Time

Alone home, so I took the time to make a cover for Hammer & Magic. Propaganda-poster-like-ish. The best I could do with a few hours and half a bottle of white wine.

You know the real best here is that I don’t feel stressed about this any longer. I do one bit every day on The Blog, which may or may not be a creative project-related thing.… Read more

479. You Have That Parent Experience Again When …

… you one the one hand are really, really angry and feel like saying something nasty to your spouse who can’t or won’t understand why lack of sleep and time to yourself got to you first, when she is preoccupied with her own lack …

… and on the other your heart is genuinely old-fashionedly melting when you see your 11 month old son trying to drink from a cup.… Read more

478. Sanitizing

Decided only to blog in the evenings after Jay has gone to bed – which is insane of course, if I ever want to get more blogging done in the short-term.

Or perhaps it is sanest of all.

I mean, that affirms that I even though I truly do want The Blog to be big, helpful and much read … my primary priority IS for blogging to give me energy.… Read more

476. Rebaptized

If you try to avoid or remove the awkward quality, it will pursue you. The only effective way to still its unease is to transfigure it, to let it become something creative and positive that contributes to who you are.
Nietzsche said that one of the best days in his life was the day when he rebaptized all his negative qualities as his best qualities.

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