Packed the borrowed car and went back to our own apartment in the City to do a few things, including 4 hours of washing clothes in the industrial machines that inhabit our basement – a bit like Björk’s cars in The Modern Things. I’m sure both were here when the dinosaurs roamed the Earth …
But seriously, it was a fine day and sunshine when we drove back on the freeway and Jay was in good spirits.… Read more
I really don’t remember much of what I did today, so it must have been a very ordinary day – fortunately, I suppose. Because such days tend, at least for me, to give some space to think about my life and how I can make the best of it.
Well, in between feeding Jay and during cooking and shopping and so on.… Read more
Had a lot of problems finding a place to work today in the city where we stay temporarily (in a borrowed house), and I was almost ready to throw in the towel and not do any work for the rest of the month we stay here and just burn more of my credit.… Read more
Went to a meeting for the self-publishing association here, and admitted that I had given up writing a novel. So why did I go?
Mostly to meet KP, as an excuse. He is the head of the association and a nice guy and I’d like to talk to him more. Didn’t get to do it that much during the meeting, but at least I was reminded why he was a nice guy.… Read more
Tried to take at least half the day off and rejuvenate my heart by writing a novella. But I was too tired inside.
The heart needs to rest first, I guess. Then it can open up again and rejuvenate by sharing what is in it.… Read more
Apropos my recent introspection about and decision to not push myself to draw …
In late 2015, I made the Pretty Big Decision of shelving a fantasy novel I had been working on for 3 years.
Another one for the deskdrawer …
It may come up again. It may not. But then it finally became official in October 2015:
It’s shelved.… Read more
During this blog, I’ve repeatedly returned to my need to draw and tried to argue why I should ‘keep the flame’ and then musing about how to do it. The problem is I’ve failed every time.
The previous considerations about everything from my concrete drawing projects to the deeper philosophy behind this part of my life may be true in a certain context, and may have been true, but since I am continually not drawing … something is clearly wrong.… Read more
Today my mum came by to see her grand son and we had a great time, except in the evening when Jay was next to impossible for reasons we couldn’t quite gauge.
Maybe the stomach, maybe just because he is growing. Maybe just … because.
But something else has been growing, in my mind, recently … a thought about my ‘lost’ novella-series, Shade of the Morning Sun.… Read more
with baby, visits, house-stuff and too little time for making money or just making some time for oneself.
And yet, when the house was quiet, I decided to take out the drawing pad. I had almost given up.
But now I was drawing for the first time in months.
I just want it to be.… Read more
… at least mentally, for I was tired. I had cleaned the apartment while Jay and Char went to the harbor on a trip, and done all sorts of things – paperwork, etc.
But I had to.
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All I do know is that my expenses are going to gradually increase as our son moves in, in a few days or weeks’ time.
All I do know is that I don’t really have enough regular customers for my webdesign-business to cover all of summer’s income needs, not to speak of the rest of the year.… Read more
Something is coming up. Perhaps inspiration.… Read more
What a morning – writing while trying to fix a clogged toilet, fix breakfast for my pregnant girlfriend, fix shopping, fix everything.
But I got written a bit for my Story.
And soon on to the accounting.
I’m glad I delayed that last part until I had the Story-bit done.… Read more
After yesterday’s considerations about persistence and hope when trying to make a living, at least partially, as a writer in the 21st century, I knew I had forgotten something…
It’s good to remember that if I write every day on stories I love for the next 10 or 50 years … then making mental room and spending calendar time for and on that … is worth the most.… Read more