479. You Have That Parent Experience Again When …

… you one the one hand are really, really angry and feel like saying something nasty to your spouse who can’t or won’t understand why lack of sleep and time to yourself got to you first, when she is preoccupied with her own lack …

… and on the other your heart is genuinely old-fashionedly melting when you see your 11 month old son trying to drink from a cup.… Read more

475. Miracle Agendas

MRN and his wife had a son today. The best of news after all the time we thought they could not.

And before they thought so, Char and I thought so. (And while we thought so, they thought still they could.)

Children …

Apparently they decide when miracles happen.… Read more

438. Grateful

We went to the hospital today to get a sort of routine check on Jay and his body development – how things are with those cramped muscles that made him turn mostly right in the first months of his life, and made his head a bit skewed because of the uneven pressure.… Read more

402. Thoughts About Expectations

I try to cram in time to connect with other bloggers, but as should be no secret by now, that is really a challenge for me given my current life.

It has been really hard for me to find other blogs of interest, also. I know that sounds snobby but I realize it is also a fault of my own to an extent: I have not spent enough time thinking about what kind of blogs I want to connect with, for example.… Read more

289. What Has To Happen

Just working throughout the day, and working with caffeine-withdrawal, too, so I’d like to shift the focus a bit.

I’d like to sound like I actually do something else than think about my own ego, work-life-balance and such.

I’d like to note a few thoughts on Jay that have been very powerful and have come again and again these recent months, as I’ve seen him grow from a newborn to a 4-month old baby:

There is so much potential in a newborn, so much promise, so much innocence.… Read more

275. First Time

Today I read a book for my son for the first time. It was a small ‘book’ with pages very thick of some plastic like material and hole and rounded corners he could grab.

The ‘plot’ was about a teddy bear taking a bath, then going to bed and then getting up in the morning.… Read more

270. Chicken Toddlers

Today we checked out a possible nursery for Jay and were both quite taken aback.

It was just … too big. 72 children for six rooms, and the building not particularly inviting.

I know this is reality for many here, and probably worse in less rich parts of the world – if they even have such things as nurseries.… Read more

249. Security

Another day with work, prep for baptism and more work – home-work with Jay. And I must say it again:

When you have children you automatically have more conflicts – the adults. Being 42 and 43 is no security against that.

However, if your relationship is old, too, and has grown old through trials then age makes you more secure in your ability to solve the conflicts that do arise.… Read more

206. My Son Slept Better This Night

What a difference it makes.

We suspected he had stomach problems, because of something Char ate – perhaps egg plants – that then ‘came through’ to him in the milk.

It’s not as hocus pocus as it sounds, that some foods eaten by mothers, really irritate their breast-feeding children. What is hocus pocus is people trying to convince you that strawberries, for example, are bad for all babies.… Read more