402. Thoughts About Expectations

I try to cram in time to connect with other bloggers, but as should be no secret by now, that is really a challenge for me given my current life.

It has been really hard for me to find other blogs of interest, also. I know that sounds snobby but I realize it is also a fault of my own to an extent: I have not spent enough time thinking about what kind of blogs I want to connect with, for example.… Read more

381. Imagining What Will Be – Now

I have a hard time restraining myself from writing – or drawing – now that I have the time, in principle. But I manage.

And I move forward with the office-creation here on the 1½ square-meters in room 1 of our apartment. I have the shelf with the printer and scanner in relative order and I have built a small file cabinet I ordered yesterday.… Read more

289. What Has To Happen

Just working throughout the day, and working with caffeine-withdrawal, too, so I’d like to shift the focus a bit.

I’d like to sound like I actually do something else than think about my own ego, work-life-balance and such.

I’d like to note a few thoughts on Jay that have been very powerful and have come again and again these recent months, as I’ve seen him grow from a newborn to a 4-month old baby:

There is so much potential in a newborn, so much promise, so much innocence.… Read more

275. First Time

Today I read a book for my son for the first time. It was a small ‘book’ with pages very thick of some plastic like material and hole and rounded corners he could grab.

The ‘plot’ was about a teddy bear taking a bath, then going to bed and then getting up in the morning.… Read more

270. Chicken Toddlers

Today we checked out a possible nursery for Jay and were both quite taken aback.

It was just … too big. 72 children for six rooms, and the building not particularly inviting.

I know this is reality for many here, and probably worse in less rich parts of the world – if they even have such things as nurseries.… Read more

249. Security

Another day with work, prep for baptism and more work – home-work with Jay. And I must say it again:

When you have children you automatically have more conflicts – the adults. Being 42 and 43 is no security against that.

However, if your relationship is old, too, and has grown old through trials then age makes you more secure in your ability to solve the conflicts that do arise.… Read more