was kind of like what Char and I were doing just now.
I said something about how tired we both were of looking after Jay and she disagreed, even though she was dead-tired. I know why, but I was tempted to argue about it anyway.
I stopped and just closed the door.… Read more
And over-population. And climate disaster looming. And pesticides in the milk. And …
That old question … I feel strange watching the world’s news while raising my newborn son. What kind of world has he come into?
He came without planning. We had long given up fertility treatments. They didn’t work.… Read more
… when you are walking your newborn son in a carriage along empty streets at 3 o’clock in the morning, to get him to sleep.… Read more
The midwife called yesterday and pulled back the day for medical intervention to induce labor to Saturday. The original date was 16 May, but that was a mistake. It is the day he needs to be born. For safety reasons.
Char is 41, so they induce labor no more than a week past her calculated term.… Read more
Writing Wednesday evening I can say that if there is one positive thing that came out of the weekend’s tense but unfulfilled expectations about becoming parents, it must be that I no longer feel a need to be as ready as I felt that weekend.
There was a mental readiness that felt very insistent and which I tried to balance with a little work, a little house-chores, and a little relaxing among other things.… Read more
Another day waiting for Jay to be born, and with only one thing certain: It’s going to be 13 May at the latest. Char is too old for them to let her go more than a week beyond term, so the doctors will see to it that the process is started.… Read more
Writing this Sunday evening and thinking about summer.
This afternoon we just had a visit by sister-in-law+kids, and a lot of talk about kids, and about having them.
It got me thinking again about what it’s going to be like – during summer, when we’ve been up all night and Jay is ill or something.… Read more
Okay, Jay may come around any day now – and according to the doctors he is due 6 May. Which still means any day now. So what’s the status on how ready I feel for that?
It’s long overdue to make such a status, and I’ve been wanting to for some time.… Read more
After a long day with Client, I went home to meet up online with some old friends and do our role-playing thing. 25 years ago we started this way of meeting and we still do, although we no longer see each other often, in physical space. So be it.
I had looked forward to it, but the sessions fizzled a bit, because one of the guys had to look after sick children at the same time.… Read more
An old friend, whom I had thought lost, said to me today that having children makes you both invincible and incredibly vulnerable at the same time.
No more needs to be said.… Read more