So today started with an argument. I don’t recall much of the substance since perhaps there wasn’t any. But I was frustrated that I could not find a sock, some clothes for Jay and that the apartment still looked messy, while I had to find something else for Char before she went out and we could hardly find time to get some milk on bottle for Saturday when I am to look after Jay alone.… Read more
Spend most of the day, including our otherwise good trip home from Char’s mum, being angry.
I had received money from Big Photographer Client 3 weeks late and he didn’t seem to care – except for making new demands about what I should do in my spare time as ‘customer service’.… Read more
Today I had a meeting with a potential client who started by telling me about the 3 (or was it 4) businesses he had run into the ground before this one.
That wasn’t actually what bothered me about him.
Nor was it the fact that he called me up later in the day – before I had even made my mind whether to proceed with making him a formal offer for his webshop – and said he had forgotten to tell me someone else was working on this and they had just reported that they could finish their version of the shop in a time-frame that suited him (thanks for wasting my time!).… Read more
There is no quick fix …
… to my income situation, to earning more money in more enjoyable ways than doing webdesign for more or less tiresome clients that I have to hunt down every day.
Sometimes I try, though, and think I can come up with a way to fix it all – if I Just Find the Right Strategy.… Read more
One of those days … slept poorly, had odd nightmarish dreams and awoke feeling like shit.
Like it all didn’t matter. I was never going to make more money before I died or got to ill health’d to do anything anymore. I was never going to do anything that mattered to more people than my immediate family, even though I had thoroughly wished that for years now – and told myself that I wished it.… Read more
Wrote a new novella, my first one this year.
I have officially quit doing the novellas about Carrie Sawyer (ex-drug addict, mother-in training, struggling artist) at least with any meaningful drive.
Creatively they are not really what I want to do with my writing anymore – if anything. Commercially – well, never mind.… Read more
Just worked all day, trying to contain my sense of desperation that I had found no customers this month yet. It is summer, but still …
In the end I decided to just write 3 or 4 blog posts about both WordPress and business-mindset when you run a one-man show and have to do the online-stuff as well: How to get time for it all …
Not only was the lack of income getting to me, but also the sense that I wasn’t providing value – not using my skills and experience for any good for anyone.… Read more
Got a gig today where I had to redesign a website but couldn’t do it. I was sure that the redesigns were relatively simple to do once I was logged in. But … no.
I was sure because the WordPress theme was a premium with lots of options, but only about 50-70 per cent of the options allowed me to do what I wanted to do.… Read more
So another few days went buy working for Annoying Big Client.
And yes, I’m still sworn to look for alternative clients, to diversify, expand. All that, yes.
But while I am dependent on him for 75 percent of my monthly income I can do something else that makes it worthwhile enduring doing work for this man.… Read more
Every time he sleeps, or when we think he is asleep, we try to get as much done as possible – from dishes to creative projects.
Funny. Jay might – just might – end up helping me getting more goals achieved, because I become more efficient.
I tend not to be efficient when time is not precious.… Read more