With regard to being self-employed I’ve discovered one thing: It is much harder to get started than get going once you are in.
Because once you get those first few people to pay you money for a job well done, your confidence automatically rises. And suddenly options don’t seem so limited anymore.… Read more
I don’t think I need to recount either my frustrations with trying to find a type of product for my webdesign business so I could earn more passive income, or at least more predictable, automated income – once everything was developed, tested and setup of course. Oh, and once I had some traffic.… Read more
Only had a little work for a returning client this morning, so I spent some of the remaining work time thinking seriously about the future – even though that was mildly angst-inducing.
Char was out with Jay and so I was at home at the ‘office’ (my desk) while the workers upstairs rummaged around, and I had to take a few walks to get peace and quiet.… Read more
News is the same shit … what can you do about the world, except feel more and more outraged? Better to read it very briefly to see if anything really important has come up that affects you, or might, and then read some research or in-depth articles about an issue, such as a particular political issue.… Read more
We went back to our apartment in the City for two days to wash some clothes and get some things in order – you know, normal lives while waiting for my mother’s operation for breast cancer and for me to earn some money before the coffers are empty.
Okay, that was morose.… Read more
In line with my previous resolution that I should really, really try to keep weekends completely off – no matter the pressure – I tried just that today. And I was close to blowing it.
I had decided I wanted to promote the live-talk about Robinson, which I’m still confident I can have ready in January as announced on that website.… Read more
Mostly all-work day but for a new, bigger client who actually has a product with ideals – creative play-guides for children and their parents.
I guess Not-So-Big-Anymore Photographer Client had ideals, as well, on the surface – like getting some memorable photos of the world for the rest of the world to see.… Read more
After my recent stress-episode I wrote Big Photographer client about what limits I would impose on my email-time and pro bono work for him in the future. After which he promptly fired me.
After all the times I’ve had to swallow my pride to get that money and change myself, not the situation, because I felt it was necessary – and wait until I could afford to quit … he does it for me.… Read more
So today started with an argument. I don’t recall much of the substance since perhaps there wasn’t any. But I was frustrated that I could not find a sock, some clothes for Jay and that the apartment still looked messy, while I had to find something else for Char before she went out and we could hardly find time to get some milk on bottle for Saturday when I am to look after Jay alone.… Read more
Spend most of the day, including our otherwise good trip home from Char’s mum, being angry.
I had received money from Big Photographer Client 3 weeks late and he didn’t seem to care – except for making new demands about what I should do in my spare time as ‘customer service’.… Read more
Today I had a meeting with a potential client who started by telling me about the 3 (or was it 4) businesses he had run into the ground before this one.
That wasn’t actually what bothered me about him.
Nor was it the fact that he called me up later in the day – before I had even made my mind whether to proceed with making him a formal offer for his webshop – and said he had forgotten to tell me someone else was working on this and they had just reported that they could finish their version of the shop in a time-frame that suited him (thanks for wasting my time!).… Read more
There is no quick fix …
… to my income situation, to earning more money in more enjoyable ways than doing webdesign for more or less tiresome clients that I have to hunt down every day.
Sometimes I try, though, and think I can come up with a way to fix it all – if I Just Find the Right Strategy.… Read more
One of those days … slept poorly, had odd nightmarish dreams and awoke feeling like shit.
Like it all didn’t matter. I was never going to make more money before I died or got to ill health’d to do anything anymore. I was never going to do anything that mattered to more people than my immediate family, even though I had thoroughly wished that for years now – and told myself that I wished it.… Read more
Wrote a new novella, my first one this year.
I have officially quit doing the novellas about Carrie Sawyer (ex-drug addict, mother-in training, struggling artist) at least with any meaningful drive.
Creatively they are not really what I want to do with my writing anymore – if anything. Commercially – well, never mind.… Read more