226. What Should Be In It

Today I had a meeting with a potential client who started by telling me about the 3 (or was it 4) businesses he had run into the ground before this one.

That wasn’t actually what bothered me about him.

Nor was it the fact that he called me up later in the day – before I had even made my mind whether to proceed with making him a formal offer for his webshop – and said he had forgotten to tell me someone else was working on this and they had just reported that they could finish their version of the shop in a time-frame that suited him (thanks for wasting my time!).… Read more

224. Being My Own Case

One of those days … slept poorly, had odd nightmarish dreams and awoke feeling like shit.

Like it all didn’t matter. I was never going to make more money before I died or got to ill health’d to do anything anymore. I was never going to do anything that mattered to more people than my immediate family, even though I had thoroughly wished that for years now – and told myself that I wished it.… Read more

218. Half the Way

Just worked all day, trying to contain my sense of desperation that I had found no customers this month yet. It is summer, but still …

In the end I decided to just write 3 or 4 blog posts about both WordPress and business-mindset when you run a one-man show and have to do the online-stuff as well: How to get time for it all …

Not only was the lack of income getting to me, but also the sense that I wasn’t providing value – not using my skills and experience for any good for anyone.… Read more

198. Mental Martial Arts

So another few days went buy working for Annoying Big Client.

And yes, I’m still sworn to look for alternative clients, to diversify, expand. All that, yes.

But while I am dependent on him for 75 percent of my monthly income I can do something else that makes it worthwhile enduring doing work for  this man.… Read more

185. These Past Days Have Been A Fucking Nightmare

Well, at least with regard to my work … My Big Client trying to implement a major new website which is a German translation of an English website and everything just fucking up about it.

Mostly because there are too few people with the correct skills in the mix, me included, but more importantly: Too little money to pay the people who are there to work the amount of work it takes to get this done right.… Read more

182. I Tried to Figure Out Which Customers I Cared About Today

… spending most of the day in my rented office space, all alone, because it is a holiday here in this country.

Not that the holiday helped. I didn’t really make any headway, except arriving at the conclusion that I want the customers of my web-consultant/design business to be

  • already off with their own business, having been in it for a year or two at least, actually making money
  • already off with WordPress but having run into a block, needing help.
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