Another consideration about this need to rebuild with Char is, of course, Jay.
I have been very angry with Char – and she with me. And we have slammed doors. During this period. But …
I don’t believe that deep down either of us really believed that this would be the end – not after 20 years and numerous hard times.… Read more
Was thinking about what feels like it has been missing from our relationship, while we have been raising Jay for the first year, and what it would take to get it back.
I found that it wasn’t sex or our once-again-shelved plans to do a major website on Inca history (a mutual hobby).… Read more
Went swimming today with Jay and it was exhausting but great. He really likes water, the little one – or so I fancy. Especially chasing after a ball in water as I hold him.
There, nothing earth-shattering new to report, but something important.… Read more
Jay went to have craniosacral therapy again today, with Char. It is something we have done regularly since November to try to get his head to develop into a fairly normal shape, because it is still slightly askew.
We have had a lot of talk about this, and a lot of worry.… Read more
We were at my brother’s house on Christmas eve and Jay had a fit, and we almost went home – just us 3 – to my parents’ house, so he could rest.
So very close to X-mas meltdown there, but the little man has been thrown around a lot between different places to stay during the past weeks, and yesterday he had a long train ride to endure.… Read more
Char was away from Jay today for the longest time since his birth – 8 hours – and I had to look after him. And I was nervous about that, like any man.
But it went quite well. And I feel totally good about that. I know it sounds trite, but I do feel a bit more being a father because I was able to do this.… Read more
Today was the yearly Tivoli day for my niece, who had brought along my nephew – and then her mum to look after both of them, since Char and I was looking after Jay – and several thousand other people who we were trying not to get squashed by. Yes, we thought it might work to try a Saturday closer to Christmas instead of a Sunday some weeks back.… Read more
Did some marketing today on the usual channels and made a few offers and then there was a big emptiness. You see, I had carved out more hours – some at a library – to do work, but there was nothing to do. And existing clients where in Limbo, not answering my mails on follow up-issues.… Read more
Tried to get some work done today, and that was challenging to say the least. There is no proper room to work in here in the house we have borrowed, only a big living room and a bedroom and a children’s room. So I have to walk half an hour to the nearest library, which is not all that good a place to sit anyway.… Read more
Called to check on my mother, and she sounded … happy.
Despite the new cancer-threat.
Or at least … in “good spirits”, as they say.
Not denying reality, but not sounding like it’s about to break either.
I believe that despite her frailty in some situations, my mother has gotten a lot stronger over the years.… Read more
“Real friendship or love is not manufactured or achieved by an act of will or intention. Friendship is always an act of recognition.”
― John O’Donohue, Anam Cara: A Book of Celtic Wisdom
I feel this is true of family, too – as family gets to know each other over the years, and come closer.… Read more
Parents came by to visit – and to take home my US comics for storage, which – I’m sure you will understand – was more difficult for me to allow than most people would have guessed.
Those comics are a prized possession of stories that I enjoyed as a teen and still enjoy and they have been very formative for me, personally and creatively.… Read more
In line with my previous resolution that I should really, really try to keep weekends completely off – no matter the pressure – I tried just that today. And I was close to blowing it.
I had decided I wanted to promote the live-talk about Robinson, which I’m still confident I can have ready in January as announced on that website.… Read more
Spent the day trying to work, again, although I had promised to keep weekends off. It was not a good or efficient work-day, nor a good family day, then.
But I felt I had to give one last effort to do more on the live-talk about Real Robinson, because there had been so many interruptions during my ‘week off’ to do this very project.… Read more