Last day alone and I simply drew a line and finished the office space, although I could have done a lot more sorting.
But even so the room that now serves as dining, office and living-room for about 20 sq meters still felt … nice in the evening. Like it was actually a real room in a place where we lived and not just half-storage.… Read more
So my head is a little bit less of a mess today … I guess it’s true (or so I’ve read somewhere) that taking a vacation can be very stressful for people who are used to work a lot.
However, this isn’t exactly a vacation, so maybe that’s just a BS-thought I need to put somewhere and get on with it.… Read more
Another ordinary workday on all fronts, so I felt it right to try to sum up how the hell I want to balance life and art – from now on.
Yeah, from now on …
This day. Not another day.
Well, I’ve tried for a few days with my new super-focused use of spare time (again – usually not more than an hour each day), and here’s the rhythm I have found to work so far:
During the day I can watch YouTube-videos but primarily on business matters, such as advice for WordPress freelancers.… Read more
Used half the day to go with and babysit Jay whilst Char had craniosacral therapy. Jay was on first and we think we can already see improvements with his head which has been a little bit flat and skewed on the right side since the summer.
Maybe it is just imagining things, but as parents you do what you got to do.… Read more
Char and Jay left to go out for a medical appointment and then down south to Char’s mum to stay, while I finish the borrowed house’s cleaning and some workers for the nth day renovate in our apartment block.
I had to drive back and forth to The Big City with all the stuff we had brought out to the borrowed house in the Provincial City over almost 2 months, and was very tired when I finally got home.… Read more
My mother is considering the additional chemotherapy offer these days, after her 2nd breast cancer op. How much is she willing to go through for an extra 10 per cent to survive until 80?
Those are the statistics – the chances in statistics-world rise, in her situation and at her age from 60 to 70 per cent of being alive 10 years after.… Read more
I had thought the days immediately after some closure on my mother’s new cancer would be a gradual feeling of sliding down from the heights of fear, but instead it was more like a plummet – into a valley of problems I had suppressed so far.
Like I had decided somewhere in my mind that even though this was hard enough, then the op would be successful and my mother would make a full recovery, in time.… Read more
There is also the part of cleaning the soul up and I realize this is what I have done, just for a little bit but with results.
I did it by stopping doing the dishes and making the beds and instead diving into quotes from one of my favorite authors – John O’Donohue – for about an hour, looking for them and reading and reflecting.… Read more
I woke up feeling absolutely not up to do accounting today, which was the plan, and had to decide if I ‘dared’ re-prioritize.
This afternoon we are going to the gym (in shifts) with Jay, long over due. And then shopping. So I only have limited time and I already feel fed up, especially after a Tuesday where my mood was really sub par.… Read more
I’ve decided to use the next 60 posts with Robinson Crusoe.
That is, I’ll write about an aspect of my upcoming live-talk about ‘the real Robinson Crusoe’ – Alexander Selkirk, and do illustrations when needed.
That way I’ll be finished in good time before my first booking in February-ish, and I’ll not stress – hopefully.… Read more