I had some time to myself today, and I don’t even remember why. Char and Jay were with … some family? I can’t remember, but I can remember that I felt to … frozen to really put it to good use.
You know the feeling right? If you haven’t relaxed in days and all of a sudden somebody says “you know have 3 hours to relax – use them well” … then it takes time to wind down.… Read more
Last day alone and I simply drew a line and finished the office space, although I could have done a lot more sorting.
But even so the room that now serves as dining, office and living-room for about 20 sq meters still felt … nice in the evening. Like it was actually a real room in a place where we lived and not just half-storage.… Read more
I feel it is unrealistic to do comic book pages as a whole and maybe I am not even that interested in that – right now at least. Since Hammer and Magic is an illustrated story first and foremost, I think I should just … accept that and then do illustrations, 1-page, for each chapter – or for as many chapters as possible.… Read more
Used half the day to go with and babysit Jay whilst Char had craniosacral therapy. Jay was on first and we think we can already see improvements with his head which has been a little bit flat and skewed on the right side since the summer.
Maybe it is just imagining things, but as parents you do what you got to do.… Read more
Char and Jay left to go out for a medical appointment and then down south to Char’s mum to stay, while I finish the borrowed house’s cleaning and some workers for the nth day renovate in our apartment block.
I had to drive back and forth to The Big City with all the stuff we had brought out to the borrowed house in the Provincial City over almost 2 months, and was very tired when I finally got home.… Read more
My mother is considering the additional chemotherapy offer these days, after her 2nd breast cancer op. How much is she willing to go through for an extra 10 per cent to survive until 80?
Those are the statistics – the chances in statistics-world rise, in her situation and at her age from 60 to 70 per cent of being alive 10 years after.… Read more
I realize that the few hours I do have, over an entire day – divided in minutes her and quarters there – they will not be used efficiently, if I have a habit of ‘zoning out’ with the latest news about nothing.
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I had thought the days immediately after some closure on my mother’s new cancer would be a gradual feeling of sliding down from the heights of fear, but instead it was more like a plummet – into a valley of problems I had suppressed so far.
Like I had decided somewhere in my mind that even though this was hard enough, then the op would be successful and my mother would make a full recovery, in time.… Read more
There is also the part of cleaning the soul up and I realize this is what I have done, just for a little bit but with results.
I did it by stopping doing the dishes and making the beds and instead diving into quotes from one of my favorite authors – John O’Donohue – for about an hour, looking for them and reading and reflecting.… Read more
The truth is that yes, there are annoying people and always will be, but once you get a good filter in place to avoid most of these then your greatest obstacle is probably … yourself.
Last night, I really felt – after having sent a question out to the universe about it – that the answer to where I could improve next wasn’t so much in trying to filter out other people, especially customers.… Read more
I woke up feeling absolutely not up to do accounting today, which was the plan, and had to decide if I ‘dared’ re-prioritize.
This afternoon we are going to the gym (in shifts) with Jay, long over due. And then shopping. So I only have limited time and I already feel fed up, especially after a Tuesday where my mood was really sub par.… Read more
I’ve decided to use the next 60 posts with Robinson Crusoe.
That is, I’ll write about an aspect of my upcoming live-talk about ‘the real Robinson Crusoe’ – Alexander Selkirk, and do illustrations when needed.
That way I’ll be finished in good time before my first booking in February-ish, and I’ll not stress – hopefully.… Read more
Today we had our long-awaited meeting with the midwife who was there when Jay was born, and who explained to us in greater detail why he was born with a (for us) shock cesarean op.
I think she made her point well, and at a time when we were better able to listen.… Read more
We’re still waiting for Jay to come, and doing all sorts of preparations, and then … sometimes just waiting. That’s how it is for first time parents, I’m sure.
And tonight I’m tired because of clients and family visits and said preparations, so I found a post I wrote before any of this ‘father-stuff’ was into the picture.… Read more