Living in my friend’s house, while he and his family is in Paris, is a real help – even if my mum wasn’t ill.
It’s spacier, which is always nice when you have a baby, but above all it is calm and quiet. It’s just as much the neighborhood that helps.… Read more
It has dawned on me that even in a best-case scenario on Friday, nothing is really definitively ‘resolved’ as regards my mother’s new cancer.
Best case is that the tumor is local and that they can take it out of the breast without further ado, maybe by injecting chemo.
But what then?… Read more
In a situation of waiting and uncertainty – to know if my mother has cancer again and how bad it is – I would love to have given some advice to myself, and then to others. The problems is, I’m not sure I’m ready to follow such advice yet.
I feel locked inside, stuck.… Read more
This morning I felt slightly mad – lashing out at everyone, specifically the only two persons nearby: Char and Jay.
The lashes were only verbal but stung, no less. And made the world worse. Not better, even though that is how it feels when it feels like you want to lash someone with words.… Read more
Nothing much happened these dates anyway, except an awful lot of stressing around doing baby-work, house-work, family, and … work.
Whenever something stressful happens in my family or to myself I’ve had a lot of joy out of reading John O’Donohue; joy and strength and wisdom, all bundled. I got his first book – Anam Cara – as a gift from a man I had barely met, right in 2005 some weeks after I had been hospitalized with rampant anxiety.… Read more
I haven’t been too proud of this week’s blogging, since I haven’t had time for it, and therefore yanked in some old texts. I want this blog to be better and better and more and more original.
But sometimes that Is. Not. Possible.
Since Char got ill I have barely had five minutes to myself all day, looking after Jay with her and doing house-work, and only being able to work very, very little.… Read more
It’s important to take a step back and look at the reasons why things turned out as they did. They are seldom simple, nor black and white. They seldom fit into the ‘personal quality lack’ or ‘inevitable fate’-explanations that we seem to be so attracted to.
While I did a project at university about attitudes towards foreigners (immigrants) I read a paper (one of a truckload) about human psychology.… Read more
Stress handling is NOT about trying to gain immunity from stress – that is silly and counterproductive.
It’s about as quickly as possible regaining balance and calm when problems bring you out of balance – make you angry, confused, overwhelmed, etc.
“Getting back into balance when you’ve been knocked about is as important as learning not to be knocked about.”
Your Lifelines are just that – a kind of first aid kit which is healthy and gives you a quick break and some energy.… Read more
Char has hurt her hand and can’t carry Jay, so I have to do it – day and night. Needless to say this … complicates my attempt to get more new clients now that I’m almost done with recent projects.
It also complicates how much time I get to myself, or with friends or with Char just us.… Read more