These past days I’ve been feeling stressed – too stressed, thoughts racing, even my movements too rapid. Like a film set to go at 1.25 instead of 1.00 speed. And that is 0.25 points too much.
This Will Not Stand.
The quality of my life is measured by how I experience it and I have to chose to experience it differently now.… Read more
Tuesday I awoke and felt everything ‘collapsing in on me’ – the little office corner in the house was still a mess.
Also, I had accounting to do, a course coming up in the evening (where I teach), work tomorrow … and through all of that an incessant yearning to just write.… Read more
I’ve given a lot of thought on how to get more energy, more synergy and generally feeling better. Especially now. At 43-ish. With a son coming up.
Generally speaking I should strive to make it very simple. So if I don’t help myself, my family/close friends or the world in a very concrete sense, I should seriously consider not doing something.… Read more
First day on my new social/news media detox.
I also exited the insurance system completely today, by the way. Rely on finding clients for my company in the future. Strange … doesn’t feel like such a big deal now, despite all the uncertainty that goes with it.
Maybe in some months when I am a father I might feel more worried about money, but for now it feels like it’s … okay.… Read more
What if I tried consistently to see my life as a journey? How would that feel?
Do I think it would make it easier for me to accept that sometimes there are false starts and dead ends and all kinds of problems?
Do I think it would make it easier for me to also enjoy the parts of the journey with the spectacular views and interesting people?… Read more
Have you ever felt overwhelmed by all your problems?
Perhaps so much you felt really down – stuck – maybe even depressed?
There’s just too much on your plate, and you don’t know where to begin.
But you do know that you feel worse and worse about it every day.… Read more
So today I spent a lot of time marketing my new company, and nothing really happened except that I spend a lot of time. And began to doubt that I would ever make it.
I guess the only sane response to such feelings is to grit your teeth.… Read more
What causes ‘the storms’ (problems) in our lives that make us unhappy and restless and upset?
The main culprit is the view that happiness is conditional on something outside yourself.
E.g. on getting that job or earning that money or finding that particular partner, and all at the expense of so many other things.… Read more
I kind of off-day.
I argued about my fee with a client to my live-talks on historical persons.
I felt I was writing into Limbo sending out pitches for people to buy from my new company.
I have now gotten the approval from both the insurance company and the official company register.… Read more
Just watched the press about the press conference of soon-to-be President of the World, Mr. Donald Trump.
I wanted to be angry with him and the people who elected him.
And the broken system that got him elected, even if he didn’t get the most votes.
I wanted to write something angry in a Facebook-group or a forum.… Read more
Today the feeling of stuck-ness almost got too much.
I’m waiting for my child, but still unemployed at 42.
I’m living in a 2-room apartment in a country where that is not so much and in any case I long for more space. It’s been two rooms for almost 20 years now.… Read more
We’re still at my parents’ …
… Much feels important to say, and yet nothing much feels more important today to keep in mind – except for this:
“Your soul knows the geography of your destiny. Your soul alone has the map of your future, therefore you can trust this indirect, oblique side of yourself.
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Went to a meeting with a consultant whose job it was to get me clear on the rules.
The rules for starting in the limited programme for entrepreneurs who receive employment insurance. Like me.
Yes, I’m allowed, but:
15 hours a week max.
And every hour I work must be deducted from the insurance.… Read more
Peace is first and foremost an Inner Experience, an Inner Journey. So outside events can be pretty screwy and it is still possible to create inner peace, in principle, as long as the focus is on it and not primarily on controlling outside events.
Some events, of extreme stress cannot be controlled – inside or outside.… Read more