Apropos my recent introspection about and decision to not push myself to draw …
In late 2015, I made the Pretty Big Decision of shelving a fantasy novel I had been working on for 3 years.
Another one for the deskdrawer …
It may come up again. It may not. But then it finally became official in October 2015:
It’s shelved.… Read more
Today my mum came by to see her grand son and we had a great time, except in the evening when Jay was next to impossible for reasons we couldn’t quite gauge.
Maybe the stomach, maybe just because he is growing. Maybe just … because.
But something else has been growing, in my mind, recently … a thought about my ‘lost’ novella-series, Shade of the Morning Sun.… Read more
Been wondering a lot when it was time to get anyone to read this blog. Currently traffic is virtually zero but so is my promotion efforts.
With baby Jay, my self-employment bizz and dishes, promotion of this blog just hasn’t been top priority. And logistically it is very difficult. At home I’m constantly interrupted.… Read more
After much dithering, I’ve made a decision. And it happened because I was rejected.
Well, kind of.
I had asked a freelance editor to take a look at my recent short novel. I figured I would pay her, then we could set a date and then I’d be motivated to finish the second draft.… Read more
I have thought a lot about what drives me. Ask me and I will say ‘never fame or money’ – never to a certain ‘position’ in politics, business or culture. None of that.
But if I really see what’s inside myself I am not so sure.
I am sure, though, when I really, really feel what I want … that I don’t want those drives.… Read more
That’s the question I ask each morning when I go out in the neighborhood with Jay in his carriage, so Char can get some extra sleep.
It would also be a good question for my life currently. With regard to a number of themes.
Since I am so restricted with time and energy right now, helping raise Jay, trying to earn a minimum income regularly through my firm, and doing dishes 3 days old, this is not an easy question to answer.… Read more
Today I was supposed for the first time to go back to my own office space and rake in more customers to my web consultant business. I was supposed to start, after 3 weeks of leave due to the birth of Jay, to plug the whole in my credit account.
But instead I went to my office space and did a lot of thinking.… Read more
I was thinking this morning, as I sometimes do, with a vague nostalgia about the time I lived in the second largest city of the country. Over 20 years ago …
We lived three young people in a shared apartment and the days went by with me working in an after school club and then in the evening the two of us sometimes went to the cinema and to events about comics and movies.… Read more
… when it comes to earning money in a way that’s better than now.
Not news, really, although this time it came to me while walking Jay in his carriage Very Early this morning, dead-tired and wondering if I was ever going to get time enough to get some of the (other) successes I craved in life.… Read more
I had this feeling yesterday, after thinking much about what to do with my writing, that I’m also equally clueless with regard to my blogging. Since I’ve been blogging on and off from 2004-2017 this is not exactly something I admit lightly.
But think of this: What kind of audience am I blogging for now?… Read more