Around the Projects, which I described in the last post, is a Frame. In that frame are all the other needs of life, but which are not instrumental, as such.
For example, companionship in the form of friendships or romantic relationships: You may share some kind of life purpose or value, but otherwise the relationship is the end in itself.… Read more
I thought for a long time it would help me finish creative projects if I narrowed them down to just one, due to work and family time constraints.
Turns out I get more motivated by having about 3 projects that I can shift between (but not many more), like I am recording an album instead of just having to choose a single song.… Read more
If I look back 21 years to the time I really started making choices that formed my adult life (at 23 in 1997) I find myself reflecting that my life has proceeded in certain phases since then.
And that these phases can explain much of what went wrong, and some of what went right.… Read more
As I grow older and continually try to fix my life to become more happier overall, it looks to me more and more like the key to winning this ‘game’ is to focus only on one single day at a time.
Sure, you should have goals and all but my point is this:
If you primarily focus on coming out of each day with the best experience, all things accounted for, you allow yourself to become happier overall – over the course of an entire life.… Read more
After much too much consideration, I think I feel more strongly than ever now that I should just give up … this struggle to ever make money full time from any creative endeavor.
You know parts and bits if you’ve read. Why I am thinking again about this.
But it really feels like it gives me what I want right now to just do my best at making business full time as a webdesigner and then taking every possible moment of free time that I need this energy to do some of my creative projects.… Read more
I have a really fucking long list of things to day that could keep me from doing something I really love, things that are Very Important – from cleaning house to searching for customers.
But I don’t do them.
I do the other thing.
And I realize more and more that this is what I have to do in order to get time to do that other thing – which I love.… Read more
I beg you, to have patience with everything unresolved in your heart and to try to love the questions themselves as if they were locked rooms or books written in a very foreign language. Don’t search for the answers, which could not be given to you now, because you would not be able to live them.… Read more
Char came home with Jay and they had had a good trip down south to the family, and the rest of the day was pretty much waiting and prepping for the other big trip this month – to my parents’.
Everything else is on standby, as expected.
I’ve been thinking about under what conditions a creative project equals stress, if I can’t work on it, like on a day like this.… Read more
So Char and Jay are off, and I went to see JMO in the evening for socializing and to get back some baby-stuff we forgot there (behind the couch) when we borrowed his house to escape the incessant pipe-work.
We had a good discussion – mildly put – JMO and I – about the so called #metoo movement against sexual harassment.… Read more
Another ordinary workday on all fronts, so I felt it right to try to sum up how the hell I want to balance life and art – from now on.
Yeah, from now on …
This day. Not another day.
Well, I’ve tried for a few days with my new super-focused use of spare time (again – usually not more than an hour each day), and here’s the rhythm I have found to work so far:
During the day I can watch YouTube-videos but primarily on business matters, such as advice for WordPress freelancers.… Read more
Dragged an old drawer Char has inherited from her mum back down from the attic, because we don’t have enough space – even with our new mega-cupboard. Jay’s toys and clothes are already piling up, but I don’t think that’s so much of a problem anymore. In fact, it feels easier and easier to clean up and let go of our stuff, and also to decide which of his things to keep.… Read more
Spent the last day in the borrowed house cleaning and shopping and doing family-stuff. I had planned some work but I had to write the clients and tell them I postponed things for various opaque reasons, because as the morning progressed I realized it would not be a good day if I did not make a choice.… Read more
A lot of driving, to fetch Char and Jay from family birthday down south and then go home and fall asleep very tired – after doing all the usual baby-stuff. But before noon I had some time to myself and even though I had to do dishes and laundry I got thinking about my vision again …
Yeah, about that story on a blog with all sorts of what-not-articles on it as well – mostly reviews of other articles.… Read more