We went back to our old apartment today to clean up, after having had Jay checked one final time at the hospital for some muscle problems that made him kind of cramp too much to the right side; probably a result of his hard birth.
It was nice – that Jay is on the right track to functioning normally, with that.… Read more
A day of washing and house-work, so why not think about the larger picture?
It occurs to me that when I was younger I wanted to, well, ‘save the world’. I took a degree in “international development”. I wanted to save the children in Africa.
Now, for a great many reasons, I want to do three things:
1) Use The Blog to lift people’s spirits.… Read more
Had a really trying day, where I fixed some stuff for clients and tried to promote my live-talks and felt all round rotten and drained. In fact: on the verge of giving up and going home many times.
I didn’t. I forced myself to keep going, even though I made mistakes and was continually dissatisfied with my work – for example, the emails I sent out to promote the live-talk about Robinson.… Read more
I believe that one of the major problems we have today, at least in the so called ‘rich’ part of the world, is that we don’t allow ourselves any really daring dreams.
Sure we may have them in bits and pieces here and there … but to really delve on our dreams?… Read more
I didn’t do a month of blogging about my subject for my next live-talk about fascinating historical persons – namely ‘the real Robinson Crusoe’ a.k.a. Scottish 18th century sailor, Alex Selkirk.
And now I’m not going to do it. And least not in a streak.
Too many disruptions recently has made me rethink this one, but I am going to use one of the major disruptions positively, namely the loss of Big Photographer Client, for whom I work two days a week plus all the loose change.… Read more
Just re-read 159 about Jay’s birth by Cesarean and how bad we felt about it, and I wonder what has changed here on his 2-month birthday.
The answer is ‘a lot’ and ‘not a lot’.
It still makes me feel bad to think about it. I still feel we were robbed of something beautiful, even if what happened was the right thing and the most important thing – Jay got out alive and well.… Read more
Yesterday as I went home from two client meetings and one pitch, and it was raining, I thought about what had gotten me here.
What was the status of my attempts at making money, and making money in a way that is more passionate and maybe even purposeful?
It is so-so.… Read more
I found this old piece that I wrote last year after hearing about another old music idol of mine dying. I felt like taking it up again, for no particular reason. Maybe except one: The feeling I get from re-reading it reminds me that I have to do better.
I want that feeling more.… Read more
.. which I realized yesterday as I was sitting on that cafe and not really living the ‘laptop lifestyle’:
I have to strike a balance.
Giving entirely up on my strong drive to earn money in better and more enjoyable ways, won’t work.
But I need not to obsess too much about it and let that mission distract me from appreciating everything else in life.… Read more