I found this old piece that I wrote last year after hearing about another old music idol of mine dying. I felt like taking it up again, for no particular reason. Maybe except one: The feeling I get from re-reading it reminds me that I have to do better.
I want that feeling more.… Read more
.. which I realized yesterday as I was sitting on that cafe and not really living the ‘laptop lifestyle’:
I have to strike a balance.
Giving entirely up on my strong drive to earn money in better and more enjoyable ways, won’t work.
But I need not to obsess too much about it and let that mission distract me from appreciating everything else in life.… Read more
Today I thought a lot about how Jay’s life would be, and what I would teach him as he grows older to get the best from it.
One thing that I want to teach, which has become abundantly clear to me in life so far, is that life should not consist of goals.… Read more
This post is written Thursday 18 about a night we will always remember: Jay was born after 12-ish hours of labor, medically induced because Char is 41 and the doctors say it will lessen risk of anything wrong not to go past her term more than one week.
Well, they were wrong.… Read more
Nothing like working and waiting for the moment when you become a parent. All that and the whiffs of a midlife crisis.
Or at the very least considerations. About where I want to go from here. (And they are urgent enough to warrant writing about.)
I wrote earlier about my idea of a ‘kingdom of the soul’, or a ‘soul goal’.… Read more
1) We have so many problems finding out how ‘life works’ that it often feels like somebody ‘hid the manual’. So what if it’s annoying that somebody ‘hid’ the good parts of life? The knowledge of how to make life work better right away? It’s only annoying if you believe that that which makes life good cannot ever be found.… Read more
Today is my 43rd birthday, and who would’ve thought I’d make it this far? Sure, I live in one of the safest, richest places in the world but the enemies haven’t come from without as much as within.
In 1999-2006 I was depressed on and off, culminating in rampant anxiety, obsessive thoughts and hospitalization in 2005.… Read more
This morning at the train-station as I was under way to Client, I thought: “Living our lives is like code-breaking.”
There’s constantly some code we seek to break: to love, to earning money, to health, to successful family life, to the good life in general … to happiness.
So is that a good or a bad thing?… Read more
Today I tried to put up some of the last shelves but discovered we hadn’t the right screws in our motley collection. Whatever. The whole 2-roomer was a mess again, so that was just one little drop.
Another came when I took down the old shelf-system, which is to be replaced by the new big cupboard for grown-up and baby-clothes.… Read more
Things are going well, and not going well.
I’m working hard to earn money in my little firm. Char is working hard to keep upright and still going to work for another month or so with her growing belly.
Our apartment is still messy and there never seems to be enough time and energy to get it ready.… Read more