328. Forgettable Except For Me

Felt very clear today about at least some parts of the future. Especially that I have to see  The Blog as my primary purposeful work – even if the rest is excruciatingly normal and forgettable and not making any difference.

Yes, I suppose some of that “rest” is forgettable if you see me as just a person who lives an ordinary life.… Read more

278. What Feels Quite All Right

Worked much of the day on a project for a customer who had paid me in June, but who has been going bankrupt for so many months. I wondered why I still cared.

Sure, she had paid me and I owed her, but I have also done a lot of voluntary stuff on her webshop in 2016, so from some other perspective you could argue she still owed me, although that would probably be too cynical.… Read more

255. Down Waiting

Everything just blew up this morning, our frustrations, my stress. So much for the podcast I actually managed to make yesterday for my product line about peace, joy etc.

After the initial waves, had lasted, though …  I just gave up. I think we both did.

Sat and stared into the air, playing distractedly with Jay.… Read more

230. Fuzzy Precedents

Today was a rotten day. I made the call to stay at home while Char (+Jay) went 2 hours in pouring rain with train and bus to her mother’s. Char had had a bad morning, too, thinking too much about the birth and the bad feelings from that experience.

But if I don’t get something done, a lot of next week is going to go without – getting something done.… Read more

149. Looking The Right Way

This morning (Tuesday) I felt again like I would never really reach anyone with this blog, much less contribute something to their lives. So I had to do the math once again.

If I try to contribute something that really, really means something to other people’s blogs each day, then that would be about 14000 such contributions for as long as this project is planned to be in creation.… Read more