“For I have heard that most of that which bears the name of learning, and which has abused such quantities of ink and paper, and continually employs so many ignorant unhappy souls for ten, twelve, twenty years in the university (who yet, poor wretches, think they are doing something all the while ) – as logic, etc., and several other things (that shall be nameless lest I should misspell them) – are much more absolutely nothing than the errantest play that e’er was writ.”
– Aphra Behn
A wise commentator said about our national soccer team in the FIFA World Cup:
‘ I don’t understand the people who want us to play beautiful football – we don’t have the team for that. We have to be tactical and play football that works to get us results. If we had played the better teams in the way the better teams prefer to play – trying lots of fancy moves, for example – then we would get shredded. We have to use the resources we have in the most efficient way – to win.’
I am paraphrasing here, but I like the observation.
It applies to a lot more than soccer.
There are a lot of odd events, big or small, from the 70s that I feel some kind of resonance with, even though I don’t remember them.
The shouldn’t mean anything to me but they do. Just as time periods in which I never lived, like World War 1.
What does that mean?
I will probably never know, but what I do know is that it means lots of stuff for stories.
I don’t think any machine can substitute storytelling, styling or layout experience (yet).
And if it could, I wonder if its owner would agree with its output.
Perhaps that is why this blog post is kind of important after all. If I then act on it, and say definitively goodbye to Star Wars (and the new Marvel comics).
Well, I do.
And it felt like a relief, despite the void.
But voids are there to be filled. And maybe a few new TV-series about some sprawling epic fascinating scifi universe can wait, anyway. Maybe it would be better to create something myself. Or maybe it would be better to create more quality time with friends and family.
Banal, yes, but isn’t it true?
I can think of worse storms than becoming a father. Because this is a storm that leaves something valuable behind, after all the things are uprooted.
Got the crime website version 1.0 finished and it felt good, even if it is not completed yet and I have not been paid yet and all sorts of other things are not getting done.
But there is still a lot of satisfaction in making a piece of work that you know you’ve done your best with.
The most efficient way to clean up is to throw stuff out.
Wouldn’t it be more convincing and powerful and thus beneficial to the purpose of The Blog to go out and start showing it to the world at a turning point, when people can begin to believe that yes, this is not just a ludicrous ambition – it is actually starting to come true?
The truth is seldom contained in a single viewpoint.
She is a sweet bright young thing and I’m sure she will move on to do great things, but she also says that she figures Eastern Europe has got “more culture” than Spain. A fact she will investigate on interrail while traveling 22 countries in 3 weeks.
So right there and then I don’t mind too much having 18 years on her. Maybe I have something to show for them after all.
Movie money logic follows the same formula as our forlorn hopes for life, sometimes: That it stays the same and that we can relive success upon success and don’t have to take risks or venture into new territory.
Saying a single act is a serious, terrible, moral problem doesn’t make it right to use that single, particular behavior as the only yardstick for judging everything about other people.
So that is the way to test if you are depressed, then: Ask yourself about any particular day, when nothing out of the ordinary happened, and what you feel about that day?
If you feel it must have been a black no-good day, then you have reason to seek out someone who can tell you otherwise.
If you can’t tell yourself that it is otherwise, and believe in it.
Another definition of depression. And so even ordinary days can, if we let them, help us discover our darkest of trials. And overcome them.