Last day before Char and Jay come back and I have done most of my web-work, the remaining laundry and Blog-catch-up. On the one hand I am relieved, really – and yet … during the day I felt some anxiety about the future all of a sudden, which first made me, well, anxious.… Read more
Met an old friend, ESK, for the first time in a long time tonight, for tea and a sandwich and a talk. About how she is stressed at work, as usual, and has asked for new assignments with less managerial responsibility. Again …
I seem to be having this conversation with her every few years, and she is ill more and more often, in so many ways.… Read more
Was supposed to work today for web-customers that I had delayed until Char and Jay were away for a few days. I still take in some customers (as agreed between Char and I), while my base is at home to take care of Jay. They are mostly the old ones who return to buy new hours and I should be happy for that, but I am not really.… Read more
My parents came over and they seemed relatively okay, although my mother was not comfortable about her chemotherapy. And not just because chemo does not make one comfortable in general!
She said as much herself:
“I am so ugly.” With reference to her hair loss (replaced by a very fine and realistic wig, by the way).… Read more
Coaching today with a single client who I am so-so about but she is a regular and so I keep her, as per the agreement between Char and I about how much work to do. And, of course, because I do need the money – I should not delude myself that I don’t, just because we are paying this month’s bills almost solely from Char’s inheritance.… Read more
Went teaching website-creating for small startups today at the organisation that used to pay out my unemployment insurance, when I was in their program for … startup. I still have a slight queasy feeling of being one of those formerly unemployed people who make a living selling services to the unemployed … like all the consultants that you had to see in the AAK organisation back when I first quit my job.… Read more
Back to normal diary-ing – even if Jay first starts daycare in March, but I have to see if I can make it work. Even if the posts become shorter (and perhaps they could benefit from that!).
There’s plenty to catch up on, although nothing earth-shaking has happened while I was ‘away’ …
But since this is going to be less ambitious, probably for at least another three weeks, let me just for today share one very tiny, but uplifting, bit of life – of my life.… Read more
This is going to be the last post in my review-series of … older posts to see which reflections/conclusions/observations about Inner Power I might want to use for a guide. I have written that with capital letters at times – Guide or “Mega Guide” – because I want it to be important.… Read more
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Apparently, once you make the decision to have faith and to set a certain course, it doesn’t feel all that difficult. It is the wavering that is difficult. The place where you are but you have not decided to stay.