was kind of like what Char and I were doing just now.
I said something about how tired we both were of looking after Jay and she disagreed, even though she was dead-tired. I know why, but I was tempted to argue about it anyway.
I stopped and just closed the door.… Read more
with baby, visits, house-stuff and too little time for making money or just making some time for oneself.
And yet, when the house was quiet, I decided to take out the drawing pad. I had almost given up on my ‘I’m Not Scared-project’.
But now I was drawing for the first time in months.… Read more
Today I took a break between clients and went to the comic shop I’ve frequented since I was 12.
Don’t go there much for comics anymore, just good chats with one of the old employees. A friendly version of Comic Book Guy from Simpsons, oh yes.
We talked about my latest live-talk, upcoming and planned, about another historical character that fascinates me:
Alexander Selkirk – the real Robinson Crusoe.… Read more
So another few days went buy working for Annoying Big Client.
And yes, I’m still sworn to look for alternative clients, to diversify, expand. All that, yes.
But while I am dependent on him for 75 percent of my monthly income I can do something else that makes it worthwhile enduring doing work for this man.… Read more
I have thought a lot about what drives me. Ask me and I will say ‘never fame or money’ – never to a certain ‘position’ in politics, business or culture. None of that.
But if I really see what’s inside myself I am not so sure.
I am sure, though, when I really, really feel what I want … that I don’t want those drives.… Read more
Writing this Saturday is interesting, because Monday could be crap. As usual. With Big Photographer Client and all his Mess.
However, after feeling like crap Saturday I’ve made a few good decisions. Here they are:
Replacing the 1500 USD per month I earn from Big Photographer Client is of paramount importance.… Read more
.. which I realized yesterday as I was sitting on that cafe and not really living the ‘laptop lifestyle’:
I have to strike a balance.
Giving entirely up on my strong drive to earn money in better and more enjoyable ways, won’t work.
But I need not to obsess too much about it and let that mission distract me from appreciating everything else in life.… Read more
So I’m sitting at this local cafe, living ‘the laptop lifestyle’, sipping latte and blogging about what’s on my mind.
Except that I’m doing it to escape our two-roomer and a baby and get an overview of what’s in my mind. Or rather: Check a growing feeling of despair this morning.… Read more
… for me to earn money in a way that’s enjoyable.
I’m amazed that at this stage of my life, 43, I have not been able to put my skill, experience, intuition to better use to make more money in more satisfying ways.
I’m amazed and deeply humbled.
What can redeem all of this is if I can put that insight and sense of humility to good use, for myself or others, in the future, and thus leave something of deep value behind.… Read more
An old friend pissed me off yesterday by changing her WordPress website to a software-as-service solution.
Not because I hate all SaaS or because I put in a lot of free time to teach her WP. Simply because she took off her head and walked with it under her arm into the arms of that SaaS-company and Took No Backup Of Her Old Site.… Read more