Rough day yesterday, between Char and I. The stress from too much work, too much baby, and too many events had not faded enough – even after the baptism – and made me angry at a great many things.
But we survived, again, as we have done so often in our 20 years together.… Read more
Everything just blew up this morning, our frustrations, my stress. So much for the podcast I actually managed to make yesterday for my product line about peace, joy etc.
After the initial waves, had lasted, though … I just gave up. I think we both did.
Sat and stared into the air, playing distractedly with Jay.… Read more
So today started with an argument. I don’t recall much of the substance since perhaps there wasn’t any. But I was frustrated that I could not find a sock, some clothes for Jay and that the apartment still looked messy, while I had to find something else for Char before she went out and we could hardly find time to get some milk on bottle for Saturday when I am to look after Jay alone.… Read more
An old friend, JN, visited today – all the way from Holland. During dinner, consisting of pizzas, in the bedroom/Jay’s room, he confided that he had tested himself for Asperger’s. The result was ‘positive’.
I had long felt that there was indeed some kind of ‘block’ in his social skills, which is one of the factors used to ‘measure’ Asperger’s.… Read more
I’m dead tired this day and I know it because this blog about the day is written … later. On Tuesday to be exact. When I had rested more.
Time to catch up and clean up.
But a point that I’m aware of here is that I’ll also have to clean up my way of thinking about goals, so they don’t revert to the old.… Read more
It was a beautiful and chaotic day for Jay’s baptism. I had not slept and felt ill but was probably stressed due to all the work, both with Jay and with, well, work. So I told people and they helped me and Char again, clean up after the party and was generally understanding and loving.… Read more
This is written Tuesday 15 August, because the impending storm due to all our commitments have blown and one of the things that got blown away was The Blog.
How odd it must be for Alex Selkirk after he got used to his condition and apparently felt peace. All he had to worry about was when the ship that would save him came, if ever.… Read more
Another day with work, prep for baptism and more work – home-work with Jay. And I must say it again:
When you have children you automatically have more conflicts – the adults. Being 42 and 43 is no security against that.
However, if your relationship is old, too, and has grown old through trials then age makes you more secure in your ability to solve the conflicts that do arise.… Read more
Sleep poorly these days, feel there’s too much work and then of course preparing the baptism and keeping up with Jay every day. It’s not awfully bad but it’s not particularly good either.
Maybe I am affected by something not entirely of my own making, sometimes I do feel like a certain negative ‘energy’ latches on to me from people or places.… Read more
Got another (big) gig today and washed a lot of clothes and diapers, but that’s not what was foremost on my mind. Or rather it was not that which was most important in my mind.
You see, one question I have to answer in my talk is whether or not, or how much, Defoe’s book was inspired by Alexander Selkirk.… Read more