I worked today, in bit and pieces of time again but that is not important. What is, is that I often wake up feeling afraid for my finances – what if I run out of credit again before I can earn enough on my webdesign business to cover my expenses?
Surprise.… Read more
Tried to work in the usual choppy time-blocks, but the library close by was haunted by another bunch of workers who made noise and with the pace I am bleeding credit, there is no way I can afford my own office yet.
No need to repeat that.
Nor that I went home to help with our ludicrous amounts of laundry, mid-afternoon.… Read more
Visited JMO because we need to borrow his house while our own apartment is renovated. Actually it is the apartment above us, but they need to shift the toilet and kitchen pipes on all floors, too. Quite a fucking bother with a baby in the house, but there you have it.… Read more
Laundry and other house-work and shifts on taking care of Jay, and it all made me think about whether or not a way to a ‘better life’ is together? I mean, with a business Char and I do together?
Yeah, yeah, our lives are relatively good, aren’t they? We’re not begging on the streets in Mogadishu.… Read more
Did a lot of client work today for people who have already paid me, but which is fine, since they might come back and pay me to do more on their websites. It is, though, not the currency of the soul and these days I feel I really need to get back to … some sense of my soul that is deeper than just family, work and worrying (about other family).… Read more
Char and Jay left to go out for a medical appointment and then down south to Char’s mum to stay, while I finish the borrowed house’s cleaning and some workers for the nth day renovate in our apartment block.
I had to drive back and forth to The Big City with all the stuff we had brought out to the borrowed house in the Provincial City over almost 2 months, and was very tired when I finally got home.… Read more
Spent the last day in the borrowed house cleaning and shopping and doing family-stuff. I had planned some work but I had to write the clients and tell them I postponed things for various opaque reasons, because as the morning progressed I realized it would not be a good day if I did not make a choice.… Read more
Went back to our apartment in the City to work because for once I had many webshop clients on the same day, but although it was a relief to get relative peace (minus the renovation of the next floor apartment), I still felt a little bad about leaving Char with Jay.… Read more
Lots of work today for an old client who returned to buy some more help for his webshop, so that is not important only good. What is important is trying to sum up some good observations from my recent Looking Back-exercise (which also includes a great deal of looking forward).
Here it is then … a very key part of my life right now – the reason I am doing The Blog:
It is blogging that gives me the sense of strength; that I reflect and feel deeply about something with a view to the silver lining.… Read more
Some belated thoughts about where I have been and where I am going …
Art & Creativity & Stories
I have belatedly realized that a prime driver of my year-long attempts to get back to the (comic book) drawing board, has been a personal ‘flaw’ if you will; the sense that I should do something to regain the recognition I felt I had from parents and peers when I was a boy and was good at drawing.… Read more