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193. I’m Amazed At How Difficult It Is

… for me to earn money in a way that’s enjoyable.

I’m amazed that at this stage of my life, 43, I have not been able to put my skill, experience, intuition to better use to make more money in more satisfying ways.

I’m amazed and deeply humbled.

What can redeem all of this is if I can put that insight and sense of humility to good use, for myself or others, in the future, and thus leave something of deep value behind.… Read more

191. So Where To Go From Here?

That’s the question I ask each morning when I go out in the neighborhood with Jay in his carriage, so Char can get some extra sleep.

It would also be a good question for my life currently. With regard to a number of themes.

Since I am so restricted with time and energy right now, helping raise Jay, trying to earn a minimum income regularly through my firm, and doing dishes 3 days old, this is not an easy question to answer.… Read more

188. I Don’t Remember What Happened Today

But I have the feeling it was a very good, ordinary day, where no one (I knew) died and the world didn’t blow up, and I was with my 4-week old son and his mum at home.

If I can’t remember in details, what happened on a particular day, when writing about it several days hence, then I fall back to the position that this is how it must have been.… Read more

186. Not Any Less Precious

Yesterday, I heard ex-FBI-director Comey’s testimony in my earphones whilst working on a customer pitch in the Royal Library (because I had tired of the regular office space).

Today a lot of people shout ‘Watergate’ and a lot of other people don’t seem to think it is so bad yet – for the US president.… Read more

185. These Past Days Have Been A Fucking Nightmare

Well, at least with regard to my work … My Big Client trying to implement a major new website which is a German translation of an English website and everything just fucking up about it.

Mostly because there are too few people with the correct skills in the mix, me included, but more importantly: Too little money to pay the people who are there to work the amount of work it takes to get this done right.… Read more