Went to the yearly Christmas gathering at the house of Char’s uncle. It’s nice but by no means extraordinary.
There are a lot of different family members and that means different lives, values, interests – none of them particulary resonant with mine.
But I had good talks all around, especially with Char’s cousin.… Read more
So I saw Star Wars: Rogue One today with Char and ES and MA, old friends.
It was fairly entertaining and the best since 1983’s Return of the Jedi for me. But a far cry from really moving, although it had its moments.
Strange to say that about a film in which the entire cast is killed off!… Read more
I had two meetings today with people I helped with their websites. I also got 2 rejections from employers I applied for a job.
But at least I helped – did something for someone. The people in question were friends, by the way, but does it matter?
It might as well have been others, like a shop-owner I help regularly with her webshop … like today, actually.… Read more
I just commented by way of Facebook on a blog post about overcoming anxiety with a rather innovative prescription.
They key thesis is that the anxiety one often can feel is due to not being clear about one’s purpose in life.
The cure is to start taking that seriously and search for purpose.… Read more
Whenever I feel really, unpleasantly restless, I have found that it is good medicine to just start cleaning the house and clearing out old stuff.
Making order and focus in my surroundings tend to gradually pull me back to a feeling of order and focus in my mind.
At the very least, I will feel some sort of accomplishment.… Read more
I donated about 35 dollars this evening to the Red Cross’ efforts to save children and everybody else in Syria. I just couldn’t stand reading about it in the news anymore.
Aleppo is falling – even more than it has fallen before, and in so many dark ways.
Thousands of innocent people trapped in there, like a cage of hell.… Read more
Today I decided to seriously-now-or-never cut my coffee to one cup per day max – and keep it that way.
The ‘mental race’ I described yesterday may be natural, whatever the cause of the flickers of anxiety:
… my upcoming fatherhood …
… my general sensitivity …
… sharp shards from a broken psyche of 11 years ago …
But it is a truth, I’ve read over and over again:
If you want mental calm, you Don’t.… Read more
Went with my niece and Char on our yearly trip to the great Tivoli here in the city.
She is 6 years old, my niece, and ready to ride the roller coaster 8 times during such a day, 5 in a row.
She would’ve wanted to do it more times, if we had not run out of time.… Read more
I had difficulty sleeping in the early hours, as so often these days.
My mind was racing, feelings with echoes of anxiety throwing my focus around like a pinball – and very much away from sleep.
I think it’s a combination of old scars from the days when I was hospitalized perhaps further back, and natural nervousness about becoming a father – a major life change.… Read more
I went downtown again today – to the office AAK has offered prospective entrepreneurs, without or without registration anywhere, to network and work for 3 months.
A new group of unemployed, receiving insurance benefits, are given the chance to mingle with ‘the real entrepreneurs’ there. I am one of them.
That is part of the pitch when the insurance organisation, AAK, sold the new office space: You see, we could get “inspiration” from the pros!… Read more