Easter Friday, and thinking again about time and all things passing. And beauty. So I found an old blog post, I’d like to share again … It seemed fitting:
I am often amazed of how much the world appears like … a mosaic.
It’s not black. It’s not white. It’s not grey.… Read more
What a morning – writing while trying to fix a clogged toilet, fix breakfast for my pregnant girlfriend, fix shopping, fix everything. But I got written a bit for my Story. And soon on to the accounting. I’m glad I delayed that last part until I had the Story-bit done.
Felt like doing another list-reflection post, then about time and Ageing.… Read more
Writing this at 915 PM after another long day. It feels oddly like a ‘sin’ to write about the end of the world, when I’m about to become a father.
On the other hand, there is a story here I know I’ve wanted to, well, make real for a very, very long time.… Read more
1) We have so many problems finding out how ‘life works’ that it often feels like somebody ‘hid the manual’. So what if it’s annoying that somebody ‘hid’ the good parts of life? The knowledge of how to make life work better right away? It’s only annoying if you believe that that which makes life good cannot ever be found.… Read more
A day on the job, I’d rather have been without and home and doing the house-stuff and preparing for the next family member and feeling rather overwhelmed by it all.
It was very strange to then just write and on the one hand feel relieved that I could and on the other feel a little sick about writing about the end of the world.… Read more
Worked all day on putting shelves, assembling Jay’s bed, shopping baby-stuff, plus normal house-chores, shopping, cooking, dishing. This should have been a day I just muddled through and forgot about but … it went better than expected. And I think I know why.
It’s because I accept it.
I accept that these days are going to be the norm for the foreseeable future, esp.… Read more
After yesterday’s considerations about persistence and hope when trying to make a living, at least partially, as a writer in the 21st century, I knew I had forgotten something…
It’s good to remember that if I write 500 words per day on stories I love for the next 10 years then making mental room and spending calendar time for and on that … is worth the most.… Read more
Got home today from the rent-a-seat-office and wanted to make a big splash in writing and blogging. And then I felt completely down about it all.
I sort of stood and looked at our tiny apartment and said to myself: ‘Yeah, yeah – it’s nice, after all. I think we have a lot of good things, including a child soon.… Read more
I worked for 7 hours trying to fix somebody’s webshop and failed at a lot of the technical stuff, which I thought I knew, but didn’t. So I only billed them 3.
I feel bad about that, but okay about having delivered fair service. And having the courage to explain to them that my abilities fell short, instead of trying to excuse myself or even bill them for all of it.… Read more
Today is my 43rd birthday, and who would’ve thought I’d make it this far? Sure, I live in one of the safest, richest places in the world but the enemies haven’t come from without as much as within.
In 1999-2006 I was depressed on and off, culminating in rampant anxiety, obsessive thoughts and hospitalization in 2005.… Read more