I realize and remember that there is no alternative to hope.
Even if you have to wait to begin hoping for something better because your mind feels like ice.
What you can't throw away is the awareness that there has to come a time again, when there will be a thaw. And then wait for that time.
The alternative is to wait for nothing, which is death, and that is not an alternative.
I should be able, with that temp work in place, to just say: 'Oh hell - I feel bad this morning. I have 2 hours. I don't have to do anything but it down, relax and wait until I feel better'.
So no pushing for customer search or whatever.
Sure, then it will take longer to built up a 'steady' customer network. And all sorts of other things.
But again, I am simply too old to continue this trend of letting the future keep me hostage and not able to relax and ... feel good about being here now. I'm going to do anything to not let that happen.
And then all sorts of goals that I know will indeed give me happiness once completed - they will have to wait a bit longer.
Because I am busy being happy right now.
People who don't do affirmations about money either have enough money, or too little self-confidence to experiment with a world-view that might get them labelled as cranks.
Either way, who cares.
I'm just saying it works for me. Now. In this way.
And I am sharing it so it can work for others, if they want.
There may be a 'Law of Attraction', but certainly no Law of Forced Brainwashing to my Silly Worldviews!
Fear does not create what I want.
Regret does not create what I want.
Backtalk does not create what I want.
Endless self-analysis does not create what I want.
Anger does not create what I want.
Shame does not create what I want.
Only creating what I want creates what I want.
And thinking it.
And saying it.
But back to the other point: Do affirmations conflict with the ideal to stay mindful in the present, what I call to build "The Experience"?
It depends, I guess.
If you do affirmations formulated like the one above ("is xxx") I don't think so.
But the manner in which you do them is also important.
If you do them in the way you would use one of those de-stress balls you can squeeze, I don't think they will hurt your experience of the present.
Depending on what the affirmations are about, they will more likely tend to keep out stressful thoughts about, say, money - which would otherwise conflict with your attempts to enjoy the present!
But of course if you use a different set of words, and if you struggle and strain while saying the affirmations ... then all bets are off.
There is a belief that says that you can attract anything you think long enough about in a positive, affirmative way.
Even if you discard the metaphysical component of that belief, I find again and again that the action of focusing on what you want, positively, affirmatively ... is good.
It can spur you to action. It can spur your subconsciousness to release new ideas to you.
It can make you look for opportunities, you hitherto would not have looked for - or discovered even when you ran into them head-on.
And at the very least, it can make you feel hopeful if you are clear that this is a hope you entertain and not some bogey way of trying to convince yourself that reality right now is otherwise.
And that exercise is actually not so useless at all ...
"Oh, I am heartily tired of hearing about what Lee is going to do. Some of you always seem to think he is suddenly going to turn a double somersault, and land in our rear and on both of our flanks at the same time. Go back to your command, and try to think what we are going to do ourselves, instead of what Lee is going to do."
- U. S. Grant