So today I spent a lot of time marketing my new company, and nothing really happened except that I spend a lot of time. And began to doubt that I would ever make it. I guess the only sane response to such feelings is to grit your teeth.
Don't make future goals more important than they actually are.. Sure you have to think about the future and important goals and all that, and sometimes at the expense of happiness in the present. But when does the balance tip? When is it too much? When have you become a hostage of the future?
This blog is what I've been wanting to do. Because there is so much more to share. I don't think I would have done it as CEO of that other company. Then I would have been counting beans now. Not thinking about so many other things to share. So maybe I am in the right place, and those phases of life (finish education, get career, start family) are just illusions. At least insofar as I think of myself having 'failed' to complete a couple of them 10 and 20 years ago.
Your ability to earn money is a measure of how well you handle a tool that allows you to live as you want to live - and therefore be. It is not a description of who you already are and what you are worth. But in our society you have to work harder to internalize that perspective well and truly - much harder than you ever have to work to earn your first million.
If you've seen any good boxing movies you know that they are not about winning in the ring. They never were. They are about winning over yourself. As you get older, you discover those are the victories you never get too old to have.
Peace is first and foremost an Inner Experience, an Inner Journey. So outside events can be pretty screwy and it is still possible to create inner peace, in principle, as long as the focus is on it and not primarily on controlling outside events.
Some events, of extreme stress cannot be controlled - inside or outside. ...
Acting on the fear, putting something in motion, even if you don’t solve the fear … that probably has a positive effect. I’ve felt so on my own a number of times. Like when I make myself feel more mentally calm and ‘on course’, by just doing the dishes. Not frenzied action to escape unpleasant feelings. Orderly calm action with purpose, even if it doesn’t change anything right away or is substantially relevant to the feelings at hand.
Doing all the dishes doesn’t solve my unemployment problem, but it makes me feel that maybe I have what it takes to solve it myself. Even if that is only proved, when it is proved.
Making order and focus in my surroundings tend to gradually pull me back to a feeling of order and focus in my mind.
At the very least, I will feel some sort of accomplishment.
And that actually counts for more than I first thought.