Knowing Yourself

  • 499. Worth Noting Again

    April 17, 2018

    I thought for a long time it would help me finish creative projects if I narrowed them down to just one, due to work and family time constraints. Turns out I get more motivated by having about 3 projects that I can shift between (but not many more), like I am recording an album instead of just having to choose a single song. It may take longer, in principle, to finish any one of these projects, yes - but now I feel more confident that I WILL actually finish one, because I realized that this worked for me. 
  • 491. The Ultimate Problem And Solution

    April 9, 2018

    Patience is perhaps the ultimate problem I have and had, even back in 1997. It might also be the ultimate solution.
  • 490. The Experience Is First

    April 8, 2018

    Goals and physical conditions and all sorts of other stuff are important, yes, but ... the entirety of my experience of life is the most important. And that, I can actually control.
  • 488. Cease

    April 6, 2018

    ---it really feels like it gives me what I want right now to just do my best at making business full time as a webdesigner and then taking every possible moment of free time that I need this energy to do some of my creative projects. Over years. And when I have the energy. Or need it. Instead of creating a struggle between my business and my creative life. Like that one about setting goals that make you feel better now...  That is a good one.
  • 473. Never

    March 22, 2018

    “Never allow someone to be your priority while allowing yourself to be their option.” - Mark Twain
  • 466. Stop

    March 15, 2018

    I realize more and more that this is what I have to do in order to get time to do that other thing - which I love. I can't wait to clean out my to do-lists. I can't even try to decide to delete items from them to make them smaller and spend time on that. I don't want to pretend that there'll ever be a period in my life when other people won't - for good or bad reasons - stand in line to take chunk out of my (life) time. They will. It will happen. So if I ever have to get more of this Love done ... I have to become better at just stopping and doing it. Much better. There's a lot more nuance to it, but this is the heart of it.
  • 406. Live the Questions Now

    January 14, 2018

    "I beg you, to have patience with everything unresolved in your heart and to try to love the questions themselves as if they were locked rooms or books written in a very foreign language. Don’t search for the answers, which could not be given to you now, because you would not be able to live them. And the point is to live everything. Live the questions now. Perhaps then, someday far in the future, you will gradually, without even noticing it, live your way into the answer." ―Rainer Maria Rilke
  • 383. The Right Motivations This Time

    December 22, 2017

    So money, miscast loyalty to others, and devotion to productivity methods that may work for others but not oneself. Those three agendas sucked out a lot of energy from the YA novel, until I shelved it when other parts of reality killed the last of my motivation, notably my need to focus on my own business, on getting settled in yet another new apartment and dealing with the personal and relationship fall-out after (at first) not having been able to have Jay, after many treatments. Oh, and a couple of close family members died, too. Just sayin' ...
  • 377. Not Force

    December 16, 2017

    There is, in all matters, something about forcing things that rarely seem to work for me, unless it is a deadline in webdesign or such.
  • 375. The Problem Itself

    December 14, 2017

    I found out the Internet itself was the problem - and the temptation to focus on everything else than what you had decided to focus on.