"Outside the great hall in the central Tower, she could see how the crystalline structures of the Secret City all glowed translucently with the light from the autumn sun.
She could also see the sun rays cascade through that particular great window like a perpetually shining waterfall that conferred on everyone gathered in the hall a slight aura of light."
This next part of my Hammer & Magic-story has been a long time in coming and I almost felt something was beginning to freeze over inside me and make me fear that I would grind to a halt with this story, too - because many weeks had been allowed to pass.
Fortunately, it all thawed again once I actually forced myself to start writing again.
That is a good lesson.
Having patience has always been very hard for me. And so, even with a few weeks left before Jay starts daycare and I get more time, I really have to will myself to accept the state of things. Even if I love Jay. Even if I chose to stay home to help Char whose hand ...
It is tolerable to work like this , more than any other work I have done before. But I know I will feel bereft if I end this life and have not found out how to make money from something that I feel more ... right. Not necessarily something deeply purposeful - that is The Blog and that is enough, regardless of circumstances. But something that is ... more fun, where I use more of my skills, more of 'me'. And that has always been storytelling-
And so I have embarked on Hammer and Magic, my next try to do some fiction with a little bit of art this time and make it work - this time. Not as a comic book, not as a novel - for those media have failed me. I suspect it will be a site for roleplayers with stories and a world and perhaps some sales down the line of paperbacks and t-shirts and maybe premium memberships. We will see.
It is honestly not so important. What is important is that I do it and that I do it in the right way.
And that also means recognizing that I can't really have a joyful day unless I do this first, now that I have the chance while alone. And I need only an hour to create that joy.
I need to learn, too, but more about how to create synergy between my bread-work, my current passion project for writing and, of course, my highest purpose work - which is The Blog.
But in recent days I have found a break, while Char and Jay were sleeping and I just did it - another installment of Hammer and Magic.
That will have to do for now ...
Like I wrote the other day:
... I am still only doing Hammer and Magic – art and illustration bits – in my spare-time when I need to relax. I am going to be deliberately and hopelessly “unprofessional” about how I work on this project, because I know from experience that … nothing else works, if I want to stay motivated under the circumstances of my life.
And I am very clear about that.
In the middle of everything, I manage to write the start of the next chapter of Hammer and Magic. That gives me more energy than - almost - anything else I have managed.
Nothing more really needs to be said. But all of this needs to be remembered - every day.