So Char has had two really good job interviews with this health NGO she is to raise funds for, and now we are waiting for their reply.
Which “likely” will come Wednesday. (Which is the day I am writing this post.)
And all sorts of thoughts pop up, of course. Especially after a really hard week that didn’t leave much energy for much else.… Read more
As I get older I find that I still struggle with fears, perhaps more so than before – fears that come out of nowhere.
But, I suppose, founded in reality. Or potential reality.
Fear of growing old, dying suddenly, getting ill, becoming handicapped, losing Char or Jay like that, etc.
Those and other fears.… Read more
So we got on the X-mas train for my parents’ town, 4 hours away, and it wasn’t quite as filled as I feared, but it was no joyride either – with baby Jay and a bunch of other kids.
But after all the ruckus back home and in recent weeks, with the apartment renovation, spots of hours to work and then some free days to catch up on just cleaning up and clearing out … well, it felt good to go to my parents’ home, even if it’s a bit away.… Read more
I worked today, in bit and pieces of time again but that is not important. What is, is that I often wake up feeling afraid for my finances – what if I run out of credit again before I can earn enough on my webdesign business to cover my expenses?
Surprise.… Read more
Tried to work in the usual choppy time-blocks, but the library close by was haunted by another bunch of workers who made noise and with the pace I am bleeding credit, there is no way I can afford my own office yet.
No need to repeat that.
Nor that I went home to help with our ludicrous amounts of laundry, mid-afternoon.… Read more
My mother’s breast cancer operation went well, all things considered and she was home from the hospital the same evening. She sounded relatively good on the phone, although the uncertainty about the future feels as vulnerable as the part of her body where they cut her.
At least when I think of it.… Read more
My mom called today and said she is going to have surgery in 10 days to remove her remaining breast. It seems like the cancer-tumor is local.
She is exhausted as are the rest of us, but given the situation’s severity this is by far the best outcome.
I had thought I would still be relatively anxious afterwards and think about what if they discover cancer-cells in the lymphatic system during the operation (a standard test)?… Read more
Okay, Jay may come around any day now – and according to the doctors he is due 6 May. Which still means any day now. So what’s the status on how ready I feel for that?
It’s long overdue to make such a status, and I’ve been wanting to for some time.… Read more
Today, we’ve cleaned up in the apartment and done some plans for how to rearrange everything to fit, once Jay is there.
Cleaning up and fitting things in your living for a new, expanded function.
Seems like as good an occasion as any to talk more about purpose.
Purpose is about your feeling – however it has come to you – that you are here for a reason.… Read more