Last day at my parents’ and everything is sort of fine, except that I have a cold and I have been reminded again that all is not as dandy in my 20-year relationship with Char as I like to tell myself.
Nothing special has happened, just another of those episodes where I say something I think is innocent, often something I say to help and she takes it as some kind of criticism and gets irritated.… Read more
Managed to do a hour’s marketing and an hour’s work today on an old customer’s website, otherwise I helped Char with Jay – and wondered how satisfied I was with the overall balance between work and family, and what I would do to change it from now on.
The first question is easily answered: I am not satisfied – 2 hours per day is too little, although that has been the norm very often these past few weeks due to reasons you know by now if you have read the past month or so on The Blog: My mother’s illness, Char’s inflammation of the hand and general baby-chaos.… Read more
A storm blew over our country this night and wrecked some things, but not much compared to other parts of the world. It made me think again about how grateful we should be for this geographical location, and how I should be more grateful of the assets I have, instead of bemoaning what I have not.… Read more
Reality set in today (for the nth time) as I tried to eke out work-hours while Char was away with Jay from the house, for as long as she could do it with her tenosynovitis and morale keeping up with autumn mist-rain.
I got about 4 hours, not all of them good.… Read more
Tried to get some work done today, and that was challenging to say the least. There is no proper room to work in here in the house we have borrowed, only a big living room and a bedroom and a children’s room. So I have to walk half an hour to the nearest library, which is not all that good a place to sit anyway.… Read more
Char has hurt her hand and can’t carry Jay, so I have to do it – day and night. Needless to say this … complicates my attempt to get more new clients now that I’m almost done with recent projects.
It also complicates how much time I get to myself, or with friends or with Char just us.… Read more
Parents came by to visit – and to take home my US comics for storage, which – I’m sure you will understand – was more difficult for me to allow than most people would have guessed.
Those comics are a prized possession of stories that I enjoyed as a teen and still enjoy and they have been very formative for me, personally and creatively.… Read more
In line with my previous resolution that I should really, really try to keep weekends completely off – no matter the pressure – I tried just that today. And I was close to blowing it.
I had decided I wanted to promote the live-talk about Robinson, which I’m still confident I can have ready in January as announced on that website.… Read more
Spent the day trying to work, again, although I had promised to keep weekends off. It was not a good or efficient work-day, nor a good family day, then.
But I felt I had to give one last effort to do more on the live-talk about Real Robinson, because there had been so many interruptions during my ‘week off’ to do this very project.… Read more
Home alone and time enough for work and to think about whether or not my relationship with Char is in some kind of crisis.
We increasingly get angry with each other, even over small things. We increasingly seem to automatically consider something the other said as an attack, or something done to take something away from us.… Read more
Was alone home today, whilst working and it was a strange feeling.
I was glad to have the time, without interruptions. Also to just sit back after work and enjoy a whiskey.
But I also missed Jay and Char very much.
I both needed them to be there and not to be there, at least that day.… Read more
It was a silly argument, but seemed important enough to get quite heated, while we were at it. In essence, I was afraid she was accusing me of not earning enough money. I felt she was not appreciating I had stayed at home and kept a low profile otherwise in business, to support the family shortly before and in the weeks after Jay’s birth.… Read more