489. Better Addictions

The reason bad habits, I’ve found, tend to be more seductive than other activities is not because they feel intrinsically better and we just don’t want to admit it.

A habit is just as much a product of habit … repeated actions that stimulate centers in the physical brain that gives instead feelings of reward and therefore become more, well, powerful the more they are stimulated.… Read more

488. Cease

After much too much consideration, I think I feel more strongly than ever now that I should just give up … this struggle to ever make money full time from any creative endeavor.

You know parts and bits if you’ve read. Why I am thinking again about this.

But it really feels like it gives me what I want right now to just do my best at making business full time as a webdesigner and then taking every possible moment of free time that I need this energy to do some of my creative projects.… Read more

124. Dimensions Worth Remembering

After yesterday’s considerations about persistence and hope when trying to make a living, at least partially, as a writer in the 21st century, I knew I had forgotten something…

Something important.

Like:

It’s good to remember that if I write every day on stories I love for the next 10 or 50 years … then making mental room and spending calendar time for and on that … is worth the most.… Read more

121. Messages in a Bottle

Today is my 43rd birthday, and who would’ve thought I’d make it this far? Sure, I live in one of the safest, richest places in the world but the enemies haven’t come from without as much as within.

In 1999-2006 I was depressed on and off, culminating in rampant anxiety, obsessive thoughts and hospitalization in 2005.… Read more