I thought for a long time it would help me finish creative projects if I narrowed them down to just one, due to work and family time constraints.
Turns out I get more motivated by having about 3 projects that I can shift between (but not many more), like I am recording an album instead of just having to choose a single song.… Read more
The reason bad habits, I’ve found, tend to be more seductive than other activities is not because they feel intrinsically better and we just don’t want to admit it.
A habit is just as much a product of habit … repeated actions that stimulate centers in the physical brain that gives instead feelings of reward and therefore become more, well, powerful the more they are stimulated.… Read more
After much too much consideration, I think I feel more strongly than ever now that I should just give up … this struggle to ever make money full time from any creative endeavor.
You know parts and bits if you’ve read. Why I am thinking again about this.
But it really feels like it gives me what I want right now to just do my best at making business full time as a webdesigner and then taking every possible moment of free time that I need this energy to do some of my creative projects.… Read more
After yesterday’s considerations about persistence and hope when trying to make a living, at least partially, as a writer in the 21st century, I knew I had forgotten something…
It’s good to remember that if I write every day on stories I love for the next 10 or 50 years … then making mental room and spending calendar time for and on that … is worth the most.… Read more
Today is my 43rd birthday, and who would’ve thought I’d make it this far? Sure, I live in one of the safest, richest places in the world but the enemies haven’t come from without as much as within.
In 1999-2006 I was depressed on and off, culminating in rampant anxiety, obsessive thoughts and hospitalization in 2005.… Read more
Started the day writing, before we did all kind of cleaning up- and baby-prep stuff.
And I quickly got some business-mail out of the way, and although I know it is waiting for me Monday, I just had to get going.
So I wrote again – a scene for my story.… Read more
A very focused day, which seemed to serve me well with my apparently-no-longer-that-difficult customer. And with other things.
My computer’s died so I use Char’s and have to get a new one soon – teaching and talks coming up.
Apartment’s still messy but at least we got a changing table set up for Jay.… Read more
I considered for this past couple of days if I should undertake a new creative project, or expand the drawing project I already have. It feels as if my creativity lacks something, so that’s why.
I have spent a lot of hours thinking about this, while shopping, going from A-B or just thinking.… Read more
This morning I felt remarkably sluggish and first wondered if it was because I was, well, older …
42 and not in shape, so why not?
I’ve heard older people (older than me) say again and again: ‘I don’t have the energy I used to’. And it’s been a long time since I took the black belt in Taekwondo and was in peak condition, at just ‘the right’ age.… Read more