It has dawned on me that even in a best-case scenario on Friday, nothing is really definitively ‘resolved’ as regards my mother’s new cancer.
Best case is that the tumor is local and that they can take it out of the breast without further ado, maybe by injecting chemo.
But what then?… Read more
There is also the part of cleaning the soul up and I realize this is what I have done, just for a little bit but with results.
I did it by stopping doing the dishes and making the beds and instead diving into quotes from one of my favorite authors – John O’Donohue – for about an hour, looking for them and reading and reflecting.… Read more
Nothing much happened these dates anyway, except an awful lot of stressing around doing baby-work, house-work, family, and … work.
Whenever something stressful happens in my family or to myself I’ve had a lot of joy out of reading John O’Donohue; joy and strength and wisdom, all bundled. I got his first book – Anam Cara – as a gift from a man I had barely met, right in 2005 some weeks after I had been hospitalized with rampant anxiety.… Read more
Was told today that the father of my best friend, MRN, has cancer.
MRN did not tell it to me yet, but I know he will, because we will talk sooner rather than later. (Tomorrow is his birthday.)
I thought a lot about how to handle that and how to support MRN the best.… Read more
I have been thinking about what to do for M, whose mother is – as always – very ill.
Never getting better, as he said the other day, with exhaustion tinging every part of his voice.
I had been thinking about some recommended books to send him. About how to get through it all.… Read more