272. Joan of Dark

Been a long time since I thought about Joan of Arc.

But now I think I might go back to her, in an upcoming role-playing game (historical) with my good friends. And maybe I will also try to sell my old live-talk about her once again.

I’m fascinated by Joan, but not so much because of her ‘divine inspiration’ but rather because of the way she embodied, I think, being both human and ‘inspired’.… Read more

269. Reason

There must be a reason why we are living in these different dimensions, if it is true that it is so.

The best one I’ve heard so far is that we can’t experience ourselves as boundless and limitless and light and so on, our true natures if you will, if we don’t temporarily impose some limits on ourselves.… Read more

179. You Are Probably Wondering How We Can Have Faith After That Event

– of both light and darkness?

I am talking about Jay’s birth, of course.

Everything was going so well, we were so full of hope – and then: operating table, cesarean, trauma.

We have cried a lot about that, but fortunately we are doing well overall. And we are more and more able to take joy in the important things – that Jay did well and does well, even if the birth wasn’t what we had hoped or expected.… Read more

158. Beneath All Currents

Char hasn’t given birth yet which means that we have to go to the hospital tomorrow to start medically induced labor. Unless it happens during the rest of today, of course.

Char is 41, pushing 42, so it’s an offer from the health system – that it can be started no more than a week past her term.… Read more

146. Indivisible

Thought for a brief moment of spending some more of the waiting time for our son with looking for new clients, since I know I’m going to have only about 3K USD left on my private credit account by the end of month.

Probably less since I will be spending on food, etc., and not working much in this period of becoming parents.… Read more

73. Positions

I woke feeling like somebody has stolen my energy, irritated and anxious.

But it helped that I got right off building the new ‘office’ in room 2 and then completed a task for a new (steady) customer. I can’t remember if I wrote earlier that I got all the various approvals, registrations and rubber stamps for my company after much soul-searching.… Read more