489. Better Addictions

The reason bad habits, I’ve found, tend to be more seductive than other activities is not because they feel intrinsically better and we just don’t want to admit it.

A habit is just as much a product of habit … repeated actions that stimulate centers in the physical brain that gives instead feelings of reward and therefore become more, well, powerful the more they are stimulated.… Read more

375. The Problem Itself

Another ordinary workday on all fronts, so I felt it right to try to sum up how the hell I want to balance life and art – from now on.

Yeah, from now on …

This day. Not another day.

Well, I’ve tried for a few days with my new super-focused use of spare time (again – usually not more than an hour each day), and here’s the rhythm I have found to work so far:

During the day I can watch YouTube-videos but primarily on business matters, such as advice for WordPress freelancers.… Read more

157. Fine so

A few days ago, I found myself doing the dishes and then going back and forth to my email to see if anyone had written anything “vital” to me (a definition I’ve deliberately left open – but it’s to do with emergencies at work or in the family, mostly).

Thus, I found myself checking email maybe 5 times during an hour to see if anything “vital” had come up which could … divert my attention, I suppose.… Read more

153. Detox II

I awoke with my head full of rampaging thoughts, about everything from work to sex to trivialities and I hated it. It’s not as if it happens so often anymore, but it is a reflection of a larger issue:

I still use woefully little of my mental capacity to actually drive towards the goals that mean something to me.… Read more

77. First Silence

First day on my new social/news media detox.

I also exited the insurance system completely today, by the way. Rely on finding clients for my company in the future. Strange … doesn’t feel like such a big deal now, despite all the uncertainty that goes with it.

Maybe in some months when I am a father I might feel more worried about money, but for now it feels like it’s … okay.… Read more