I wanted so badly to watch television this weekend while I did the dishes. Anything to get buzz in my head and relax while I had some ‘free’ time, not taking care of Jay.
But I did not.
I promised myself that, aside from emergencies and The Blog, home-time is without Internet.… Read more
The reason bad habits, I’ve found, tend to be more seductive than other activities is not because they feel intrinsically better and we just don’t want to admit it.
A habit is just as much a product of habit … repeated actions that stimulate centers in the physical brain that gives instead feelings of reward and therefore become more, well, powerful the more they are stimulated.… Read more
I’ve experimented with this before and failed – mental detox. From all kinds of distractions. Especially online.
There is only one conclusion, like there is for alcoholics: Either I am abstinent or I am not.
I can’t control it otherwise.
So when home I don’t use the Internet, except in emergencies.… Read more
Another ordinary workday on all fronts, so I felt it right to try to sum up how the hell I want to balance life and art – from now on.
Yeah, from now on …
This day. Not another day.
Well, I’ve tried for a few days with my new super-focused use of spare time (again – usually not more than an hour each day), and here’s the rhythm I have found to work so far:
During the day I can watch YouTube-videos but primarily on business matters, such as advice for WordPress freelancers.… Read more
News is the same shit … what can you do about the world, except feel more and more outraged? Better to read it very briefly to see if anything really important has come up that affects you, or might, and then read some research or in-depth articles about an issue, such as a particular political issue.… Read more
I realize that the few hours I do have, over an entire day – divided in minutes her and quarters there – they will not be used efficiently, if I have a habit of ‘zoning out’ with the latest news about nothing.
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A few days ago, I found myself doing the dishes and then going back and forth to my email to see if anyone had written anything “vital” to me (a definition I’ve deliberately left open – but it’s to do with emergencies at work or in the family, mostly).
Thus, I found myself checking email maybe 5 times during an hour to see if anything “vital” had come up which could … divert my attention, I suppose.… Read more
I awoke with my head full of rampaging thoughts, about everything from work to sex to trivialities and I hated it. It’s not as if it happens so often anymore, but it is a reflection of a larger issue:
I still use woefully little of my mental capacity to actually drive towards the goals that mean something to me.… Read more
I don’t want to sound like a fanatic. Watching the latest SNL show is sometimes needed to get some energy, but it is very easy to fall into the temptation of using that, and other things on the Internet especially – from Facebook to porn – to … well, just try to escape.… Read more
Yesterday and the day before that I felt the first effects, I believe, of my Internet detox.
No internet, except 15 min of mail in the morning, two quick news checks and perhaps looking for another blog to comment on.
+What is absolutely necessary for work, of course – but nothing else.… Read more
First day on my new social/news media detox.
I also exited the insurance system completely today, by the way. Rely on finding clients for my company in the future. Strange … doesn’t feel like such a big deal now, despite all the uncertainty that goes with it.
Maybe in some months when I am a father I might feel more worried about money, but for now it feels like it’s … okay.… Read more