With regard to being self-employed I’ve discovered one thing: It is much harder to get started than get going once you are in.
Because once you get those first few people to pay you money for a job well done, your confidence automatically rises. And suddenly options don’t seem so limited anymore.… Read more
Was thinking about what feels like it has been missing from our relationship, while we have been raising Jay for the first year, and what it would take to get it back.
I found that it wasn’t sex or our once-again-shelved plans to do a major website on Inca history (a mutual hobby).… Read more
I’m through summing up conclusions from last year’s reflections, but where next?
These day’s I’ve had a backlog of posts, not because the world went up in flames but just … because: Baby, work, family and all. And sometimes the need to forget my laser-focus and just zone out whenever I had an hour or two.… Read more
I worked today, in bit and pieces of time again but that is not important. What is, is that I often wake up feeling afraid for my finances – what if I run out of credit again before I can earn enough on my webdesign business to cover my expenses?
Surprise.… Read more
A dreadful day in our old apartment in the City, because workers were going to and fro, tearing out the kitchen of the apartment above us.
The old lady who lived on the 1st floor had recently gone to a nursing home and now the owners of the building felt it was time to renovate the apartment before renting it out again, but without warning tenants with small children.… Read more
Managed to do a hour’s marketing and an hour’s work today on an old customer’s website, otherwise I helped Char with Jay – and wondered how satisfied I was with the overall balance between work and family, and what I would do to change it from now on.
The first question is easily answered: I am not satisfied – 2 hours per day is too little, although that has been the norm very often these past few weeks due to reasons you know by now if you have read the past month or so on The Blog: My mother’s illness, Char’s inflammation of the hand and general baby-chaos.… Read more
Reality set in today (for the nth time) as I tried to eke out work-hours while Char was away with Jay from the house, for as long as she could do it with her tenosynovitis and morale keeping up with autumn mist-rain.
I got about 4 hours, not all of them good.… Read more
Tried to get some work done today, and that was challenging to say the least. There is no proper room to work in here in the house we have borrowed, only a big living room and a bedroom and a children’s room. So I have to walk half an hour to the nearest library, which is not all that good a place to sit anyway.… Read more
Sunday was still a low-key day, not so much by choice but because I still felt exhausted emotionally and, in part, physically. Naturally housework began to creep up on us, but my thoughts were still forming on how best to approach my work and earn some money soon after all the idleness, voluntary and involuntary.… Read more
I woke up feeling absolutely not up to do accounting today, which was the plan, and had to decide if I ‘dared’ re-prioritize.
This afternoon we are going to the gym (in shifts) with Jay, long over due. And then shopping. So I only have limited time and I already feel fed up, especially after a Tuesday where my mood was really sub par.… Read more
In line with my previous resolution that I should really, really try to keep weekends completely off – no matter the pressure – I tried just that today. And I was close to blowing it.
I had decided I wanted to promote the live-talk about Robinson, which I’m still confident I can have ready in January as announced on that website.… Read more
Spent most of the day working on my next live-talk about Alex Selkirk – ‘the real Robinson Crusoe’ – and it was not perfect, although I meant for it to be.
I wanted now once and for all to take a break from the webdesign business and give myself needed rest and focus on some project that was more passion.… Read more
First test of will and decision about not to worry, since today I was doing my accounting. (And didn’t finish.)
So I am not sure about my economy in detail and even if I was I would not be sure about my income. Such is the life, now, of a self-employed person: Me.… Read more
Dentist-visits and business-meetings and a generally mixed day with no particular highlights – the ones you are afraid will come to make up a majority of your life. And yet … I was calm, about this and other such matters.
Since I decided to stress down and be my best self and use the lessons of the past – again – I’ve felt decidedly better and calmer and more at peace.… Read more