First test of will and decision about not to worry, since today I was doing my accounting. (And didn’t finish.)
So I am not sure about my economy in detail and even if I was I would not be sure about my income. Such is the life, now, of a self-employed person: Me.… Read more
Dentist-visits and business-meetings and a generally mixed day with no particular highlights – the ones you are afraid will come to make up a majority of your life. And yet … I was calm, about this and other such matters.
Since I decided to stress down and be my best self and use the lessons of the past – again – I’ve felt decidedly better and calmer and more at peace.… Read more
Teaching WordPress all day and getting paid for it, which begs the question – how can I get to do that again?
Which begs the question: Why do I want to work, when I should create ‘passive income’ based on royalties from a product-line etc? [Sarcastic reference to previous attempts at creating this reality in my work-life?]
I think it comes down to this again: That I do enjoy giving – I do enjoy the real-life connection – I do enjoy seeing the results, or lack thereof.… Read more
So today started with an argument. I don’t recall much of the substance since perhaps there wasn’t any. But I was frustrated that I could not find a sock, some clothes for Jay and that the apartment still looked messy, while I had to find something else for Char before she went out and we could hardly find time to get some milk on bottle for Saturday when I am to look after Jay alone.… Read more
Taking my first break from Robinson Crusoe-posting, I simply need to say that maybe I have fucked up all this time – trying to find more enjoyable ways to make money.
At least as regards the way I’ve tried …
I was thinking that if I don’t feel good still, perhaps worse, than when I started trying to find that way to make money in a more enjoyable, passionate way, then perhaps my goal is wrong – or the way to the goal is wrong!… Read more
One of those days … slept poorly, had odd nightmarish dreams and awoke feeling like shit.
Like it all didn’t matter. I was never going to make more money before I died or got to ill health’d to do anything anymore. I was never going to do anything that mattered to more people than my immediate family, even though I had thoroughly wished that for years now – and told myself that I wished it.… Read more
Yesterday as I went home from two client meetings and one pitch, and it was raining, I thought about what had gotten me here.
What was the status of my attempts at making money, and making money in a way that is more passionate and maybe even purposeful?
It is so-so.… Read more
Writing this Saturday is interesting, because Monday could be crap. As usual. With Big Photographer Client and all his Mess.
However, after feeling like crap Saturday I’ve made a few good decisions. Here they are:
Replacing the 1500 USD per month I earn from Big Photographer Client is of paramount importance.… Read more
… when it comes to earning money in a way that’s better than now.
Not news, really, although this time it came to me while walking Jay in his carriage Very Early this morning, dead-tired and wondering if I was ever going to get time enough to get some of the (other) successes I craved in life.… Read more