News is the same shit … what can you do about the world, except feel more and more outraged? Better to read it very briefly to see if anything really important has come up that affects you, or might, and then read some research or in-depth articles about an issue, such as a particular political issue.… Read more
A mostly very normal work-day and family-day, but something occurred to me that was perhaps not normal?
For years I’ve been trying to optimize methods to put less junk into my mind by habit, from negative thoughts to superfluous Internet-read-stuff, and I thought what if there was a Really Simple Method to do this?… Read more
Recently I’ve felt more and more often that I’m ‘losing myself’, and the worst part is that I cannot really feel what it is exactly I am losing. Because I don’t feel I have time to sit down and feel … that.
It should ring some alarm bells and it does.… Read more
Another day of the mix of trying to work a little and then do family, but with a focus on family since it is weekend – in spite of my insecurity about how much I can earn in the near future with the few hours at my disposal during normal weekdays.… Read more
Did some marketing today on the usual channels and made a few offers and then there was a big emptiness. You see, I had carved out more hours – some at a library – to do work, but there was nothing to do. And existing clients where in Limbo, not answering my mails on follow up-issues.… Read more
A lot of driving, to fetch Char and Jay from family birthday down south and then go home and fall asleep very tired – after doing all the usual baby-stuff. But before noon I had some time to myself and even though I had to do dishes and laundry I got thinking about my vision again …
Yeah, about that story on a blog with all sorts of what-not-articles on it as well – mostly reviews of other articles.… Read more
We went back to our old apartment today to clean up, after having had Jay checked one final time at the hospital for some muscle problems that made him kind of cramp too much to the right side; probably a result of his hard birth.
It was nice – that Jay is on the right track to functioning normally, with that.… Read more
Parents came by to visit – and to take home my US comics for storage, which – I’m sure you will understand – was more difficult for me to allow than most people would have guessed.
Those comics are a prized possession of stories that I enjoyed as a teen and still enjoy and they have been very formative for me, personally and creatively.… Read more
I woke up feeling absolutely not up to do accounting today, which was the plan, and had to decide if I ‘dared’ re-prioritize.
This afternoon we are going to the gym (in shifts) with Jay, long over due. And then shopping. So I only have limited time and I already feel fed up, especially after a Tuesday where my mood was really sub par.… Read more
In line with my previous resolution that I should really, really try to keep weekends completely off – no matter the pressure – I tried just that today. And I was close to blowing it.
I had decided I wanted to promote the live-talk about Robinson, which I’m still confident I can have ready in January as announced on that website.… Read more
Spent the day trying to work, again, although I had promised to keep weekends off. It was not a good or efficient work-day, nor a good family day, then.
But I felt I had to give one last effort to do more on the live-talk about Real Robinson, because there had been so many interruptions during my ‘week off’ to do this very project.… Read more
Spent most of the day working on my next live-talk about Alex Selkirk – ‘the real Robinson Crusoe’ – and it was not perfect, although I meant for it to be.
I wanted now once and for all to take a break from the webdesign business and give myself needed rest and focus on some project that was more passion.… Read more
… spending most of the day in my rented office space, all alone, because it is a holiday here in this country.
Not that the holiday helped.
Around noon I clearly felt the grip of analysis-paralysis. What I needed to do to make more money, at least 1500 USD more per month from now on, that eluded me.… Read more
Choices, I mean.
And my attempt at Internet detox becomes a lot easier. Here’s the secret:
Jay is asleep for max 2 hours at a time during day, then he wakes and needs to feed or take a poo or get a little attention. And Char is already heavily sleep-deprived and steeling recovering from the not-so-fun circumstances of the birth.… Read more