We went back to our old apartment today to clean up, after having had Jay checked one final time at the hospital for some muscle problems that made him kind of cramp too much to the right side; probably a result of his hard birth.
It was nice – that Jay is on the right track to functioning normally, with that.… Read more
Had a really trying day, where I fixed some stuff for clients and tried to promote my live-talks and felt all round rotten and drained. In fact: on the verge of giving up and going home many times.
I didn’t. I forced myself to keep going, even though I made mistakes and was continually dissatisfied with my work – for example, the emails I sent out to promote the live-talk about Robinson.… Read more
Dentist-visits and business-meetings and a generally mixed day with no particular highlights – the ones you are afraid will come to make up a majority of your life. And yet … I was calm, about this and other such matters.
Since I decided to stress down and be my best self and use the lessons of the past – again – I’ve felt decidedly better and calmer and more at peace.… Read more
Teaching WordPress all day and getting paid for it, which begs the question – how can I get to do that again?
Which begs the question: Why do I want to work, when I should create ‘passive income’ based on royalties from a product-line etc? [Sarcastic reference to previous attempts at creating this reality in my work-life?]
I think it comes down to this again: That I do enjoy giving – I do enjoy the real-life connection – I do enjoy seeing the results, or lack thereof.… Read more
Taking my first break from Robinson Crusoe-posting, I simply need to say that maybe I have fucked up all this time – trying to find more enjoyable ways to make money.
At least as regards the way I’ve tried …
I was thinking that if I don’t feel good still, perhaps worse, than when I started trying to find that way to make money in a more enjoyable, passionate way, then perhaps my goal is wrong – or the way to the goal is wrong!… Read more
Spend most of the day, including our otherwise good trip home from Char’s mum, being angry.
I had received money from Big Photographer Client 3 weeks late and he didn’t seem to care – except for making new demands about what I should do in my spare time as ‘customer service’.… Read more
Today I had a meeting with a potential client who started by telling me about the 3 (or was it 4) businesses he had run into the ground before this one.
That wasn’t actually what bothered me about him.
Nor was it the fact that he called me up later in the day – before I had even made my mind whether to proceed with making him a formal offer for his webshop – and said he had forgotten to tell me someone else was working on this and they had just reported that they could finish their version of the shop in a time-frame that suited him (thanks for wasting my time!).… Read more
After much dithering, I’ve made a decision. And it happened because I was rejected.
Well, kind of.
I had asked a freelance editor to take a look at my recent short novel. I figured I would pay her, then we could set a date and then I’d be motivated to finish the second draft.… Read more
Writing this Saturday is interesting, because Monday could be crap. As usual. With Big Photographer Client and all his Mess.
However, after feeling like crap Saturday I’ve made a few good decisions. Here they are:
Replacing the 1500 USD per month I earn from Big Photographer Client is of paramount importance.… Read more
It was a silly argument, but seemed important enough to get quite heated, while we were at it. In essence, I was afraid she was accusing me of not earning enough money. I felt she was not appreciating I had stayed at home and kept a low profile otherwise in business, to support the family shortly before and in the weeks after Jay’s birth.… Read more