Lots of work today for an old client who returned to buy some more help for his webshop, so that is not important only good. What is important is trying to sum up some good observations from my recent Looking Back-exercise (which also includes a great deal of looking forward).
Here it is then … a very key part of my life right now – the reason I am doing The Blog:
It is blogging that gives me the sense of strength; that I reflect and feel deeply about something with a view to the silver lining.… Read more
As I get older I discover continually that patience and determination are some of the most important qualities one can develop, and today was no exception.
Simply put, I was thinking about when and how to market this blog more, so it actually gets some readers.
Then I was thinking – again – about how little energy and time I feel I have for this, right now.… Read more
I’m dead tired this day and I know it because this blog about the day is written … later. On Tuesday to be exact. When I had rested more.
Time to catch up and clean up.
But a point that I’m aware of here is that I’ll also have to clean up my way of thinking about goals, so they don’t revert to the old.… Read more
Sleep poorly these days, feel there’s too much work and then of course preparing the baptism and keeping up with Jay every day. It’s not awfully bad but it’s not particularly good either.
Maybe I am affected by something not entirely of my own making, sometimes I do feel like a certain negative ‘energy’ latches on to me from people or places.… Read more
Taking my first break from Robinson Crusoe-posting, I simply need to say that maybe I have fucked up all this time – trying to find more enjoyable ways to make money.
At least as regards the way I’ve tried …
I was thinking that if I don’t feel good still, perhaps worse, than when I started trying to find that way to make money in a more enjoyable, passionate way, then perhaps my goal is wrong – or the way to the goal is wrong!… Read more
Saw Spider-Man: Homecoming today with an old friend and didn’t know whether to feel amused or annoyed that this was the 3rd actor to play Spider-Man since 2002.
I know there was something about movie rights, but overall the movie is a symptom of the tendency in Hollywood to not create something new but just rehash the old, tested and tried.… Read more
Time to be philosophical – not in the least because the day has been anything but, with breadwinner-work and baby-work.
Okay, here goes:
Happiness and peace taken together equals a sense of … beauty.
This is first and foremost and inner experience, or an inner journey if you will, since there is nothing fixed about it.… Read more
But of course I couldn’t … switch work and so.
I could just go to Big Client no. 1 and take up the reins again after my leave due to the birth of Jay. And then go catch up with other minor clients and find new clients.
And what a real bug of a day.… Read more
… anxious when it comes to earning money in a way that’s better than now.
Not news, really, although this time it came to me while walking Jay in his carriage Very Early this morning, dead-tired and wondering if I was ever going to get time enough to get some of the (other) successes I craved in life.… Read more
I’ve been thinking about four universal ways in which we (can) handle Crises in life: Big stuff – like somebody dying or losing our health or livelihood. Those categories.
I suppose you could call them strategies but in reality they are probably more like modes of action, derived from a combination of habits, capabilities and whatever social and spiritual support we can command at any given moment.… Read more
Steve Pavlina asks in his article “The Endgame of Passive Income” that you imagine a time when all your material needs and desires are met by passive income, e.g. royalties from a book-series. Then what?
Will you just sit and watch the Internet Noise all day? Play golf? What?
If you can’t answer that question satisfactorily then you are heading in the wrong direction trying to create passive income (which is never wholly passive anyway – a book needs to be written and marketed, after all).… Read more
Yes, we try to fix it all … with a little prescribed mindfulness or meditation, perhaps.
But usually we fall by the wayside …
We end up ‘fixing’ only our sense of being swept away by life’s storms, whirl winds – whatever they are.
But we are still swept away … every day …
So we continue to fix by continuing to escape:
Whatever feels like it is too strong for us to control and brings us out of balance all the time – screaming kids or a screaming boss.… Read more
What if I tried consistently to see my life as a journey? How would that feel?
Do I think it would make it easier for me to accept that sometimes there are false starts and dead ends and all kinds of problems?
Do I think it would make it easier for me to also enjoy the parts of the journey with the spectacular views and interesting people?… Read more
Today we started rearranging our smallish apartment for Jay’s coming. I felt a bit like we were too late, not just with that but with everything.
Jay should have been here 10 years ago.
Our steady jobs should’ve been here 10 years ago.
Some kind of house should be here for all of us to fit in.… Read more