248. What I Have To

Sleep poorly these days, feel there’s too much work and then of course preparing the baptism and keeping up with Jay every day. It’s not awfully bad but it’s not particularly good either.

Maybe I am affected by something not entirely of my own making, sometimes I do feel like a certain negative ‘energy’ latches on to me from people or places.… Read more

244. Drop By Drop

Taking my first break from Robinson Crusoe-posting, I simply need to say that maybe I have fucked up all this time – trying to find more enjoyable ways to make money.

At least as regards the way I’ve tried …

I was thinking that if I don’t feel good still, perhaps worse, than when I started trying to find that way to make money in a more enjoyable, passionate way, then perhaps my goal is wrong – or the way to the goal is wrong!… Read more

215. Spider-Clones

Saw Spider-Man: Homecoming today with an old friend and didn’t know whether to feel amused or annoyed that this was the 3rd actor to play Spider-Man since 2002.

I know there was something about movie rights, but overall the movie is a symptom of the tendency in Hollywood to not create something new but just rehash the old, tested and tried.… Read more

203. Beauty

Time to be philosophical – not in the least because the day has been anything but, with breadwinner-work and baby-work.

Okay, here goes:

Happiness and peace taken together equals a sense of … beauty.

This is first and foremost and inner experience, or an inner journey if you will, since there is nothing fixed about it.… Read more

176. Today I Wanted to Switch Work, Income, Life – Immediately

But of course I couldn’t. I could just go to Big Client no. 1 and take up the reins again after my leave due to the birth of Jay. And then go catch up with other minor clients and find new clients.

And what a real bug of a day. While yesterday wasn’t so bad as I feared, today gave me reminders all across the board about why Big Client is a real challenge to work with.… Read more

171. I Momentarily Felt Anxious About My Prospects of Success

… when it comes to earning money in a way that’s better than now.

Not news, really, although this time it came to me while walking Jay in his carriage Very Early this morning, dead-tired and wondering if I was ever going to get time enough to get some of the (other) successes I craved in life.… Read more

139. Four Ways of Handling Life Crises

I’ve been thinking about four universal ways in which we (can) handle Crises in life: Big stuff – like somebody dying or losing our health or livelihood. Those categories.

I suppose you could call them strategies but in reality they are probably more like modes of action, derived from a combination of habits, capabilities and whatever social and spiritual support we can command at any given moment.… Read more

93. Where Does Passive Income Lead?

As you know, if you’ve been reading the past week’s entries or so, I’ve been thinking a lot about socalled passive income:

– How I want to create it
– How much I want of it
– and what it is.

And it suddenly occurred to me yesterday or the day before that, some time in the evening when I had turned off the Internet Noise and just lay on my bed:

– What if I don’t need passive income?… Read more

72. The Heart Needs No Distractions

Yes, we try to fix it all … with a little prescribed mindfulness or meditation, perhaps.

But usually we fall by the wayside …

We end up ‘fixing’ only our sense of being swept away by life’s storms, whirl winds – whatever they are.

But we are still swept away … every day …

So we continue to fix by continuing to escape:

Whatever feels like it is too strong for us to control and brings us out of balance all the time – screaming kids or a screaming boss.… Read more