Inner Power

  • 194. My Life Is Fucking Perfect (Not)

    June 17, 2017

    Sometimes you have to appreciate what you can do, instead of what you can't.
  • 193. I’m Amazed At How Difficult It Is

    June 16, 2017

    What can redeem all of this is if I can put that insight and sense of humility to good use, for myself or others, in the future, and thus leave something of deep value behind. What will destroy everything that is left is if I allow this sense of being humbled to overwhelm me in despair, shame, self-recrimination, thrown back and forth between these emotions like a ping-pong ball mind. So I have to choose.
  • 184. Maybe I Have Found Out How to Become Significantly Happier

    June 7, 2017

    How the hell can you gain anything by not focusing on it? How the hell can you make something real for you that you badly want by constantly criticizing yourself for not having it? How can you arrive at a place without setting a course?
  • 167. Maybe We Could Have Avoided

    May 21, 2017

    Sometimes you have to insist of a certain treatment in the medical system, not just bow to authority. They will often bow to you, then.
  • 161. Going Through

    May 15, 2017

    If you are going through hell, keep going.
  • 160. The Strand

    May 14, 2017

    We felt bereft of the birth we had imagined and ashamed that we couldn't just concentrate on the joy of our son 100 percent and all kinds of confusion and ... trauma I guess. It was all muddled up. But by making the decision that this was not the full story, even though I didn't know how this chapter of my life would be meaningful in the future, I managed to created my first strand of hope.
  • 157. Piss in the Pants

    May 11, 2017

    Awareness of a behavior you want to change is the first step to that change. Even if it is an awareness you don't like. Especially if it is an awareness you don't like. You just have to be brave enough to keep it and not run away from it, as you usually do, and feel how much you don't like it. That's when you realize you must change.
  • 153. Detox II

    May 7, 2017

    So yeah, even if it is insane and all that. I hereby take a 30 day challenge, not to use the Internet for anything else than that which is vital, such as communicating with clients or family. Or if it is to do with something specific that furthers my goals, like writing more or drawing. Then we will see if I can do more than just try to detox and cleanse my mind for limited periods, but actually do and change something that's even deeper ... the program in my mind that want's to tox it all again.
  • 152. The Best of It

    May 6, 2017

    Our son should have been born today, at least according to the doctors' predictions. He wasn't. Not a world-shattering problem, but I must admit the waiting time is getting to us. So we tried to make the best of it and went out into the sun.
  • 144. How To Treat A Liar

    April 28, 2017

    Your doubts must never be allowed to just grip you and tell you things are like this or that feeling, especially the future. The future is not set, but you have to force yourself to imagine it in a very particular way, finding an argument why it will be in a certain way, and making that feel plausible. Then you break it up - the doubt. Because doubt seems to be defined by its ability to freeze us in time. It can tell us that this moment is all that exists and that your efforts to change the future can't really matter for that reason. Well, it is a lie. And if somebody is lying you in the face, your natural instinct should be to tell them flat out why they are wrong.