I have done continued attempts at "mental detox" in the last year but they were all geared at one intent: To become better and better at controlling what goes into my mind, like nutrients into the body.
So it's NOT about meditative silence.
It's about a third foundation for Inner Power: Controlling what goes into your mind, broadly speaking.
The two others must be:
The awareness and acceptance of how many more possibilities we have to feel "happy" and 'at peace' if we try to consciously change our experience of events, not events themselves all the time - and that this is possible and worthwhile. (Post 415.)
That it makes no sense to have future goals, almost no matter how important, that gives you stress in the present. Either the goal is wrong or your path towards the goal is wrong. (Post 416.)
Future goals are important, yes, but if you stress about them so much that they diminish your life quality in the present for months, perhaps years, then what are those goals worth?
You need new goals, or at the very least - new ways of achieving goals. So this is also a major factor in both inner peace, but also the whole schtick about achieving happiness by working on your experience of events first and second on changing those events, or accepting them - depending on the context.
If I can change my inner experience of any given event or situation, I have mastered it. And one experience that I really want as 'basis' is an experience of peace, so events that happen and affect me adversely (like getting fired) will not affect me as powerfully emotionally. That peace is both dependent on a peace that has been established before an adverse event happens, by building up a resilient worldview (if we can call it that). It is also a peace that comes from building up a habit of dealing with an adverse event in a positive way, mostly or wholly. Meaning: If I can learn to interpret an adverse event in different ways, I have effectively eliminated its adversity, partially or wholly.
So I choose to be smart and wise, and rebrand what I am doing as just that. I have to. I can't let that inner critic win. What will I gain from it? To overtax myself in order not to feel ... "unprofessional"?
I'm sure some people will check just that box and then go overtax themselves for this reason. But I have done so many times before, and I like to think that I learn my lesson as I grow older.
So even if that inner critical voice is not dead and may never be, at least I can resist it now.
"In the midst of winter, I found there was, within me, an invincible summer. And that makes me happy. For it says that no matter how hard the world pushes against me, within me, there’s something stronger, something better, pushing right back."
– Albert Camus
I want to renew my vow to myself about making it my key priority to have a better life experience, regardless of circumstances - some of which I can control, others not so much.
That makes it imperative that I prioritize this type of mindfulness that comes from, well, slower thinking.
I also find that it is easier for me, as I have recounted before, to experience my thoughts especially as something I can only (and somewhat inadequately) describe as:
"a scene with Patrick Steward in a Shakespeare-play reciting something profound."
(from 137. Kingdom of the Soul)
Second, I want to reaffirm my dedication to use the full arsenal of my experience to change, well, my experiences so they become more deep, more beautiful, more empowering ... or just better.
Instead of letting my mind run on autopilot and think negatively, in dis-empowering ways or just fill itself with junk instead of focusing my precious spare time on something truly valuable.
Whenever for some reason I experience such ... mess in my head, my experience tells me that I should find an anchor-point. Something to focus on. Something that is positive, even if it doesn't feel like the answer to any of those problems, imagined or otherwise.
I think writing is a good start ...