Meaning and Purpose

  • 319. The Project

    October 19, 2017

    But that Big Project - like writing a famous book or going to save the children in Africa somehow - is not for me. I feel other people can do these things better than I, especially because I have so little capital - financial, political, cultural when it comes to Africa. When it comes to famous books, I just don't feel like that any longer. As I've already written about I know this motivation has been in me, for some reason, and it is deeply wrong. And the list goes on. These are just two of the Big Things, I've chased and tried to do with my life and then not really done. But maybe I don't need to. Maybe I just need to share all that I have learned.
  • 294. For Good

    September 24, 2017

    But obviously, and learned the hard way, such things come at a price and maybe it makes more sense to lend a hand to cousin R, a serial entrepreneur, who needs input on how to make his new self-brewed beer brand biological (and who actually wants it), instead of burning hours trying to convince someone against their will to shift political positions to something I believe is 'better'. 
  • 288. Seeing Behind The Void

    September 18, 2017

    Maybe I should just accept that - for whatever reason - the negative self-critic is still part of me. The part that says I have not achieved enough earning money or being famous. And then leave it at that and make my best efforts to move on and realize some of the purpose, like The Blog, or that charity project. Purpose that I know to be real and good for me, no discussion. Once that realization is bigger and fills out much of the current vacuum then the voice should have less power. So perhaps the voice addresses a true need after all. For I feel I am not doing enough to promote The Blog (as mentioned earlier) and I feel that is a problem. I also miss doing something real for charity again, and preferably with Char. Or at least have some definite goal or vision for that part of our lives, instead of just focusing - as is difficult not to - on the daily problems and challenges, esp. with an infant son and irregular income. So perhaps the voice is calling my attention to a true need, but it does so in the wrong way. It fills the actual vacuum of my life right now with calls to do something that is superficial.
  • 271. Do You Dare To Dream Big Enough?

    September 1, 2017

    It is logical to dream. More than that. It is necessary. In some ways as necessary as eating or breathing. I know these are big words, but just think: What is your life worth if you constantly restrain yourself from dreaming 'too much' - imagining the good stuff you want to experience, to have, to think, to realize? What's it worth? Your life becomes mediocre - no, worse: A shell. Don't go that way. Turn right now - and start dreaming more.
  • 263. The Chance

    August 25, 2017

    I have to do this now, before everything else becomes 'too important' again, though - including making money sooner rather than later.
  • 246. No Diversions

    August 8, 2017

    But in my experience we, the people, forget so often to ask them ourselves: What makes me really happy? What I do now? The way I do what I do now to get something better in the future? Or ... ? We forget. And run in all sorts of directions for peace, happiness and joy, even if we are so often missing them. Chasing wild geese ... like that stressful drive up the career ladder or whatever it is that makes no sense to strive for to become happy in the future, if it is done in such a way or if it is for such a goal so as to make us miserable for a long time in the present.
  • 220. Moving On Despite

    July 13, 2017

    We do have to accept the difficult birth of Jay and move on. And to some degree we already have.  We both know it is necessary. We just have some pain left that is difficult to keep inside or find a place for. Some painful memories.  We have to accept those, not feel ashamed. The question is how? Will a dream that may or may not have been precognitive about the experience help? Will it help if I tell Char about it? Will she even believe it? I don't know. I just know I have to get on with my work today, and then later with caring for Jay. That is what is necessary right now. I will have to let this go. That is the right thing. For now. And then return to it later. For a while. Try to learn to keep it in me a bit more or maybe find a better place for it.  That is also the right thing.
  • 208. Balance Between Passion, Purpose and Profit – Status

    July 1, 2017

    But more often than not, for my own life at least, I've found that I need to balance passion, purpose and profit - not try to force it into one place or activity. One thing I do is what I am most passionate about, work-wise. Another contains the most purpose. Another the most profit. Each contain a little bit of the other, but they are separate. Will it change in the future? I want it to, honestly. But for now it seems like I have to strike a balance, and learn to strike it better every day. Like most other humans.
  • 204. The Folly of Our Complacency

    June 27, 2017

    Death reveals to us the folly of our complacency. When we are confronted with some death or other, especially a death of someone close to us, we are stripped naked - even if only for a short while. We are reminded of something unpleasant (not only our own physical mortality). We don't like to be reminded. Hence we try to forget as often as possible, as quickly as possible and ... 'move on'. I'm as guilty of that as the next man! What we want to forget ASAP is: That we think it is 'all right' to live on forever in a certain way --- or at least for a very, Very, VERY long time. That it is all right not to change. That it is all right to always be the same. It is not all right.
  • 195. What I Have To Do With My Life From Now On

    June 18, 2017

    Life is meant to be good, despite the obvious times when we have to accept is is not. Why is it meant to be that way? Because we choose it, dammit.