The big contrast to the occasional sinking feeling about how the birth went is of course the one we experience every day, with Jay. I swear that baby has the world’s cutest smile and I am sure I can prove scientifically that no other baby smiles just as wonderfully as Jay does! 🙂
What it means is that those feelings of love and connection, whenever I hold him, are so overwhelming that very few things in life quite compare.
And fortunately, those feelings are the sea whereas the memory of the night he came is more like an island that grows more and more distant as time passes.