372. Easy and Hard

Dragged an old drawer Char has inherited from her mum back down from the attic, because we don’t have enough space – even with our new mega-cupboard. Jay’s toys and clothes are already piling up, but I don’t think that’s so much of a problem anymore. In fact, it feels easier and easier to clean up and let go of our stuff, and also to decide which of his things to keep. And for how long.

It is not that easy, mind you. But the exercise of throwing things out and constantly evaluating what you need and what you don’t need does get relatively easier if you are forced to make it – constantly. And we are.

It feels as if it is with this exercise as with any other kind of exercise: It gets easier the more you do it. The hard part is getting started.

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353. Cultivating The Beach

I wonder if the goal for the rest of my life should not be to set larger and larger goals – about accomplishments and achievements? I mean, forget more power and influence or ratings or readers or fans or whatnot. Focus more on cultivating the feeling that there is always an inner surplus of faith and calm and peace, but also of a sense of beauty and excitement – about things big and small.

It is hard to put into words, but perhaps it is a bit like the feeling you have when you have been at the beach all day long with family on a vacation and everything has gone well. You are calm and relaxed but you also have other sights and experiences you want to see. However, what is important it that your base on the beach, and in the holiday house perhaps – they are there. That sense of a base of calm and rejuvenation, from which you can venture out. I really can’t put it better than that right now.

It doesn’t negate large external goals, like growing my company to have employees – from 10 to 1000, or such. But perhaps that focus on ‘cultivating the beach’ is what underlies it all. If I feel I am moved away from that, while building my company then I am building in the wrong way, at the wrong time or I should not build at all. 

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320. Fear Is Something You Learn To Live Better With

Fear is an integral part of human life and it doesn’t matter that we are no longer living on the savanna looking over our shoulders all the time for saber tooth tigers. It doesn’t matter if we – as I do  – have a more or less comforting spiritual world view and accompanying experiences (or beliefs that we have had certain experiences that confirms this view). It doesn’t matter if we are generally endowed with a very strong psychic condition whether from nature or from training, as certain special troops in the military many have, for example.

Fear is not something you eliminate from life. Even Jesus feared the cross. Joan of Arc feared the fire. We fear all the time.

Fear is not something you eliminate from life. It is something you learn to live with in better and better ways.

And fortunately, it is possible to do so and still have a good life.

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313. A Prayer To The Soul

And despite all my good intentions, all my insight, all my experience, all my … love – despite all of my capabilities, I am here – in a very fragile position, despite the strengths I still have.

And still, a part of me seems to oppose my attempts to heal, to ask for and receive a period of peace and respite.

That is a hard admission to make.

And all I can do is every moment I have with just a little bit of freedom of mind and space, to ask my Soul – in there somewhere – to work fully with me, to set me free. To receive help. Try to soften up whatever hard barrier once petrified around it.

There is only that one thing to do in such a situation.

Like climbing a mountain, one step at a time. As you do with any mount

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276. Reminders

Whatever work I do in the future, to earn a living, as long as it is not too dreary or filled with a majority of people I don’t resonate with … it is certainly work that will have to include and be done for … other people.

Actively. Face to face.

Not from a distance. Not always, at least.

This was another reminder. But I will take it to heart.

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267. The Soul Opportunity

There’s a very real opportunity, however cliche, to reconnect with our souls on a long commute, by doing nothing in particular but looking out the window and let thoughts fly.

If you don’t believe in Soul then substitute with the term “feelings”. Those are the ones we so often leave un-noticed in the everyday drone and race. We ignore them. Act habitually and frantically, trying to get everything to ‘work out’.

Ignoring if the basis for wanting to work out something in particular has changed; if we feel differently about this or that matter.

We just act automatically, re-actively, habitually. Or at least I do. Maybe you are different?

Well, I didn’t think so. 

So there’s the deal: Try looking out the window, next time you commute. Try to do nothing. And just feel what you feel and what comes up.

Maybe when you commute next time it will be to somewhere entirely different.

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